on the 13 january 2007, my beloved granpa has peacefully return to the father's hands. he was suffering so much and im really glad that he is in a better place now.

dear kong kong,

i love you sooo much and you will be deaRLY miss by me...
thank you for everything that you have offered me...
may you rest in peace...
i love you kong kong..

love always deena.

its the holidays...

im in singapore... grandpa is still in the hospital... hopefully this weekend he will be discharge.... not much we can do... he cannot breathe on his on... he still needs the oxigen to breathe... with the help of the machine he can breathe properly... anyway i cant be long...

im currently down with a bad cough myself...
damn pain man!

ok la... laterz...
gtg...
mwah~

holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear B,

When no one else can understand me,
When everything I do is wrong,
You give me love and consolation,
You give me hope to carry on,
And you try to show your love for me,
In everything I do.
That's the wonder, the wonder of YOU.

When you're near, my worldis brighter,
You touch my life and my heart sings,
Your trust in me makes life worh living,
Your love to me is everything.
You're always there to lend a hand,
In all I try to do.
That's the wonder, the wonder of YOU!

I'll never know how much you love me,
My life is yours and yours alone,
And it's so wonderful to know you,
To know that you're my very own,
Figures I'll never now the reason why,
You love me as you do.


B,

Thank you for the past one year. It's been great and i really appreciate what you have done for me. I'm really sorry for my cranky moods. For the past one year being together with you is great. You gave me hope in everything that I do. You never failed towards me. Youre always trying your very best to be there for me. You never give up on me but instead you gave me the courage. That I thank you. I can't tell you how much I really love you but God knows how much. I love you nicholas. Thank you for everything.

Love always your one and only.. deena..

It's a brand new year again.. Bbye 2006.. Hellluuuuu 2007... wishing each and everyone a happy new year..

welll... what a way to start a new year.. final exam was yesterday.. paper sucks.. dont ask why... i have submission + presentation later in the morning.. than im off for the holidays...

I know i haven't been blogging.. i'm just tooo lazy or tired.. or busy with my assignments.. i'm finally done with my assignments and just ready for presentation later..

grandpa is still in the hospital.. sigh.. i hope and pray that he will recover fast so we can bring him back home...

ill be off to singapore for the holidays as usual.. but this time i'll be in the hospital taking care of my grandpa.. mum has been there ever since..

i havent had enough sleep though.. sigh.. cant wait for the holidays.. which starts today.. hahaha after my presentation.. hehehe.. weird timing for the holidays.. people back to school, university and college but im off for the holidays..

i spend my new year at laundry.. its a bar at curve.. with kristen, natalie, kingsley and of course my B... and kristen's cousin.. we were there to celebrate kristen's bday.. we got her drunk and high... she was hyper as usual... expressing her undying love to all of us...

anyway i really havent been catching up with my life.. life is normal.. it was our 1 year anniversary during christmas.. how time flies though..
i kinda like it in 2006.. im really hoping for a better year ahead..

anyway to all mmu people.. good luck for finals.. and also.. happy holidays after that...
enjoy your holidays..
mwah..~

im off to bed now.. *yawn*

im bored!!! and hungryyyyyy... helppp meeeeee........

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merry christmas peeps~

it's freaking 7am.. i havent had my beauty sleep yet.. had to finish up my work for critic session today.. sigh.. im damn tired..
not only that.. their are sooo many things on my mind.. im worried for my grandpa.. he is still in CCU (Critical Care Unit). i hope and pray that he will pull through it.. but at the same time i dont want to see him suffering.. he is now breathing with a tuib from his thoart.. the doctor say without that his lungs might collapse.. sigh.. i really dont want to see my kong suffer.. at the same time dont want him to go.. even though i know he will be in a better place.. *sigh* ='(

i miss kong sooo much.. he was sooo strong.. that he built me a swing when i was young.. i love you kong kong.. please be strong.. i know you are strong.. ='(

sorry i havent been posting about myself for a very long time..
kinda busy with things around me...
my head is not right here with me.. its some where else..
my grandpa is still in the hospital.. at least he is off the machine at the moment.. hope he recovers fast..
christmas is coming..
im kinda in the holiday mood.. but i have sooo much of work load to finish in this period of time..

few updates...
im addicted to veronica mars from liana... i finish watching season 1, 2 & 3... all the season.. terrer hor me..
hehehe...

i really want to watch CINTA.. its a movie that just came out.. but i cant find the time to watch it.. uwaaa.. i have one assignment that i am suppose to submit tomorrow and i havent started.

im really sorry i havent been updating my blog.. my life isnt that amazing right now.
im a lil stress with everything..

okay la... now i have to get back to reading my notes and create a 15-30 seconds of time based assignment.. argh.. i hate it.. i feeling like giving up at times.. banging my head on the wall would be much better i think..

ok... enough enough... ciao~

i know i havent been blogging...

i have no mood to blog this pass few weeks...
i dunno..
i had a bad weekend...

aunty linda passed away... i couldnt believe it but i just dont want to see her suffering the pain anymore...

dear aunty linda,
i miss you sooo much...
you were like a mother to me.. i know you are in a happier place now...
im glad that you's not suffering from any pain anymore..
you're in a better hands now...
just want you to know that you will be remembered and missed dearly..
i love you aunty. may you rest in peace..

love deena.

its been a while..
now im back in MMU, second trimester starts today...
bangkok was great.. i did shop a lot.. shop till you drop people always say...
went back to kuching to see my grandpa's new house...
its awesome...
wow...
hehehe...
i love it...
anyway results didnt turn out the way i wanted it to be...
so i guess i have to put a lot of effort again...
sigh..
im just plain.... stupid...

life is full of craps!

GREAT!!!

my day is just soooo fucking great...
i had a freaking huge fight with my mum..........

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
its sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck off!
i dont want to know you anymore!

a gurls day out... hehehe.. that is what we call it... hehehe... had fun and also did crazy stuff... not me but them... heheheheh...
damn i really miss hanging out with both of them... and plus without our bfs... hahaha... must definately do that more often.. hehehe.. sorry B... ehhehe... but sometimes i got to be with my babes.. hahaha...

anyway i love you both babes... thanks for everything... we are sooo gonna get that mng top... hehehe... weeee...

hey..
holidays starts officially..
weeeeee...
justin tore his muscle again coz of running... kesian tht boy... haih...
poor thing... hope his muscle gets better soon... or not i cannot go out with my twin anymore... hehehe...
he ran with his muscle tore and got gold... not bad huh..
hehehe...
im hoping to get enough sleep before i start second semester again... hehe...

singapore was awesome... with no haze... the sky was clear... it was fun going out without the haze.. hehehe..
i got my first birthday present from sophia.. "she insist of getting tht for me... hehehehehehhehe.... i laughed sooo hard until i couldnt breathe... "


hehehe... nice leh... hehehe... anyway thanks babe... ill make sure ill wear it when you come down to kl... hahaha... mwahxxxxx... i miss sophia... hehehe...

my flu isnt getting any better... *sigh*
okay la... its getting a lil late... im off to bed...

i feel sooo weak...
i dont want to get up...
my body is soooo warm...
my thoart hurts...
i cant breathe through my nose...
its all block up...
uwaaaaa...
i need you and...
i miss you...

im down with a fever and a flu...
=(

blueks

counting the days to head back to kl..
i miss kl though..
im heading down to the city again soon.. going out again.. or i die of boredom here.. its freaking hot ere!!! i want snow!!!

hey..
before signing off..
i wanna wish all MMU students happy holidays..
and selamat hari raya to all muslims students..
and selamat hari deepavali to all hindu students..

take care..

=D