'I do not know him enough!'
Those were the words that came out from his mouth...
I shouldn't have open my mouth to say anything about anything...
Sometimes I feel that I'm no one here...

Who am I around him? I keep on wondering...

I can't believe how old guys are being such a child and a pervert...

This guy at Cobra Club, did something that disgust me so much...

He literally wink his eyes, and also did his mouth as though he wants to kiss me...*'what the fuck!' those were the words that came out from my mouth immediately! YUCKS!!!!*

It's just so disturbing and he just pulled down his dignity as a guy!

I immediately just felt so uncomfortable and disgusted by his action!

Because of this, I told the boyfriend... He was angry that he couldn't do anything... I didn't blame him as we were all with his uncles and aunties... and especially his mum and dad was there... I just couldn't stand the guy's action...

The boyfriend was so angry until I feel like he is shutting my off from everything... I guess nothing I can do to just cool him off... *sigh* What a failure I am as a girlfriend! *that's what I think in my mind*

Chinese New Year is all about visiting all the relatives and also collecting ang-pow! hehehe...
I didn't get much though this year as most of my family are not around... They are all over but can survive la... :) Not too worry! :) Been gambling here and there... won and loose at the same time... but it's all cool.. IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR they all say... hehehe...

Anyway I'm still not having much sleep though with all the late nights... but at the same time excited as I'm starting back to work in 4 days... 4 more days to enjoy then concentrate on work! :) No more fucking up anymore...! Need to work as hard as I can... Well in this 4 days I was hoping that I could go to Genting to go to the theme park but that all depends on the boyfriend...*praying that I could go* hehehe...

Yesterday baba cooked! yea!! BABA cooked! hehehehe... it was delicious though... hehehe... he can open a burger stall now... :)

Pictures of the boyfriend's birthday has been posted up on facebook... :) so many though... Happy viewing... :)

*I miss boyfriend*

The new Kelly Clarkson's song... It's lovely though...

My Life Would Suck Without You...

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Being with you is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Cuz we belong together, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

I am an IDIOT...
I am a STUPID person...
I am full of DRAMA...
I don't know how to think...

These lines of words keep repeating in my head as he shouted at me...
*sigh*

hey hey you you!!!
hehehehe...
Sorry for the late post.. and NO I did not abandoned my blog...
I just have been really occupied with things... :)

Sorry Astrid for not updating my blog!!! hehehehe...

Honestly I do not know what to write and there is nothing in my mind...

Wait... Lemme think...
Urmmmmm....

Oh-ya...!!!! I got a job!!! I start working on the 3rd February... :) Right after all the holidays... :) So wish me luck!!! :) Holidays will be over soon!! No more bumming around anymore! :) It's a relief though that I don't have to look for more job opportunities at the moment...

Well the surprise birthday party for the boyfriend and Kevin worked out... :) Two weeks of planning... Astrid did all the list of people though... Most of it is Astrid's work!! Way to go babe!!! :) I handle the boyfriend only... :) and... Tina handled Kevin... hahahaha...It's so hard to lie and I hate lying... *sigh*And the boyfriend got drunk and couldn't remember A single thing! He did puke in his bed though! hahahahaha!!!! *pictures will be uploaded soon* But indeed I had fun but.... I didn't sleep that much cause I had to clean the boyfriend up!!!

One thing did accrue to me was 'someone' said that I was a drama queen!!! Well I am A DRAMA QUEEN!!! At least I admit it and you don't! So mind your own business! Well I wonder who the person is... To that person, think for yourself cause you don't know whats going through my mind, so don't simple judge me and call me a drama queen cause you might be ONE too! And if it really happen to YOU, I shall say it back to you!!! In the end were you the one who clean everything up??? So fuck off! Mind your words!

Today is the eve of Chinese New Year...
And I'm currently still at home waiting for my mum to decide what are we doing tonight...
I wonder whether we do still have family dinner! *sigh* I cannot join the boyfriend's family... :( I don't think so though...
At the same time, I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone 'GONG XI FA CAI'!!!!! Hope you all get loads of angpow! :)

I better go and do some laundry's before mum gets back and nags at me!
So tata for now!

later~

Just sitting here watching the rest getting their tattoo done is just awesome!! It's a lil freaky though with the sounds... but... you'll get over it... Currently Astrid is doing hers and it's almost finish! Hers is the Chinese character of her name... :) Weeee... she finally got over the face of the fear in her... hehehe! Way to go babe!!! 

Kevin on the other hand is in the other room getting his done.. probably only half though... He is coming back tomorrow to get it finish... :) His is a lil painful as he is skinny and he is in pain... hahaha.... His design is kinda very complicated so thats why he is coming back tomorrow... :) 

Hamish also is the first time doing it... His design is cool though... A hand holding the rosary... :) Very nice indeed~ 

David got the 5 stars on his right chest~ Simple though... :)

Okay.. Astrid and David is done~ Waiting for Hamish and Kevin to finish though... :) The boyfriend is suppose to come but until now he is not here yet... :( *as usual... :( SIGH*

Updates!

1. Times flies when you are having fun... I guess everyone heard of that particular phrase a lot... :) Well, honestly it's true... especially when we are having so much fun...
Before Chris Tang left back to Aussie we all had dinner together and it was pretty much fun though... We played Jengga, Uno cards, the game called Speed, Big Two... We were just continuing playing until pretty late... It was just a second I thought it was 8pm but unfortunately it was already 1am I think. hehehe... and the night carried on and on and on... :)

2. I had a reunion for our Confirmation Class last Saturday... Not many came though...
First it started off with dinner at Satelite *Chicken Rice Shop* hehehe... then over to M.I.A. *Deirdre's pub*.

3. I'm officially broke already after spending it on the boyfriend's present.

4. Hopefully get a job soon!

5. PC crashed on me! So now is in the shop!!!! *more money*

6. Dyed my hair black again!!!!! Coz the previous colour was not that lovely anymore! hehehe... *thanks to Nat Nat*

7. Still eating like a pig!

8. Being a bum to clean my room! It's in a MESS!!!!!!! *sigh*

9. Oh-ya! Sometimes being a useless girlfriend! *Does that count???*

10. Went for Beef noodles with the boyfriend, Tina and Astrid... :)

11. Went to Ikea with Nat Nat and went crazy!!! hahahaha! *fun times*

12. Lack of sleeep!!! :(


What else???? I can't think of much though.... My brain is currently not working! *Please pray that I'll get the job soon!!!!!!!*

sometimes I just feel like everything I do, is wrong!


wish me luck today! *wink wink*

The day the boyfriend was in Mersing, I bought the boyfriend his birthday present. :) Well, on that same day I drag Astrid and Dominic to follow me to get his present... Dominic had to try it on just in case I forgot his size... hahaha...Since its something that I wasn't sure of his size I had to give it to him earlier... :)

Oh-well when I gave it to him, he just didn't want to wear it... He wanted it to be on the shelves... ahhaha... He doesn't want to wear it coz he is afraid that it might get spoil and dirty... :)

Well, its the adidas adicolor shoe... :)

After getting his present, the same day Astrid, Dominic and I went for some karoake! hahaha... Yea... We dragged Dominic to come with us... Kristen came also... So there were 3 girls and A guy...! hahahaha... Poor Dominic though... He had to watch us sing, jumping and screaming on top of our lungs... hahaha.. But indeed we did have so much fun! :) Ryte Dominic??? *wink wink*

Now I'm waiting patiently for the boyfriend to come!!!! Urghhh!!!! Since 1 pm you know!!!!! HUNGRY!!!

Date : 4th March 2009
Venue : Stadium Negara, Kuala Lumpur.

They are gonna come!!!!! Weeeeee....I wanna go!!!!!! but but but but...... no money!!!*sigh*

Walaaaaaaaaaaa....

My jigsaw puzzle is finisto!
It took me roughly about 5 days to complete it! :)
It's lovely though...

.........

We had a slumber party and only slept at 6am yesterday after saying good night to each other for a million times....

DAMN freaking tired!!! But I had so much fun!!!
What we did really reminds me of when I was a child...

.........

Thank you Astrid, for teman-ing me while the boyfriend went to Mersing for the Uncle's funeral...

My condolences to the whole family... Be strong...

But.... He is back already!!!

I bought his birthday present already... :)

Dear Kristen,
It's your birthday today!! You're a year older now... :) But still you still have the young heart...
Through out this years you have learn a lot of things in life... Cherish it and enjoy yourself cause we only get to live once... :)
No matter what I'm here for you.. Love you!
Happy Birthday Babe!
Love Deena.

Dear Azie,
Happy Birthday Babe!
You dah tua!! hehehe... but still muda k... :)
May this year fill you with loads of money and loads of happiness...
Enjoy yourlife and have a great year ahead of you...
Love ya! Miss ya too!
Mwahhhh...
Love Deena.

Helloooo 2009!!!

I would like to wish everyone....

A Fantastic January,
A Lovable February,
A Marvellous March,
A Luckiest April,
An Enjoyable May,
A Successful June,
A Wonderful July,
An Independent August,
A Tastiest October,
A Beautiful November,
and
A Happiest December
for 2009!

Well, I spent my New Years at Laundry, Curve with the boyfriend, Nat nat, and Shri... The boyfirend's brother was there too... I did had fun although my eyes were pretty tired of crying *coz my my finger...sigh*
Nat Nat has the picture of my finger wounded! Pretty much the last memories of the last of the year 2008...*sigh*
Anyway overall I had fun though!!! :)

The last post of year 2008!!

It's the last day of the year 2008...
Many things has happen throughout the whole year... Many were good...and not to mention there were bad times too...

Anyway it's all in the past... and I'm looking forward to the new year, new beginning...
Let's see....

Yesterday Astrid and I cooked for Kristen. as we might not make it for her birthday which is on the 1st January... We cooked for like so many people but only Kristen*the birthday girl*, Astrid, Hamish, the boyfriend and me... hahahaha... it was like a feast before opening a new chapter in life for the next year... hehehe... Sadly we didn't manage to take any pictures as everyone dive in to eat... *We feeding the hungry stomachs*

I have already started doing the jigsaw puzzle that I bought in One Utama on Boxing Day... :) Enjoying myself... That is one thing I still love to do and I'm surprise I have the patience for it... :)
At least something that I'm patience at... hehehe...*something that I've gotta work on it*

Anyway I shall better stop... Need some rest... Yesterday stayed up until so late... :)

Before I forgot... and if I do not have the chance.... I'm taking this opportunity to wish each and everyone of you a very Happy New Year... I'm sorry if I have done anything wrong or hurt anyones feeling in the year 2008!!! To anyone who wants to turn a new leaf, I say it's best to do this new year! :) Good luck and all the best for the new year....

Cheers to the new beginning!
Happy New Year peeps!
Wishing that everyone will have a great 2009 year...

Love, Fabian and Deena. <3>
Bye bye 2008...

Hello 2009!!!

Who am I suppose to turn too when I'm feeling down and sad?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I'm feeling angry?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I'm feeling happy?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I don't know where I stand?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I feel that I am no one?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I feel like I'm useless?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I want to share my thoughts?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I feel like talking?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I have an argument?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I don't understand anything?
Who am I suppose to turn too to teach me?
Who am I suppose to turn too to feel love?
Who am I suppose to turn too to feel wanted around?
Who am I suppose to turn too to feel cared?
WHO AM I SUPPOSE TO TURN TOO???

Sometimes how a girl feel is how I feel. Girls are sensitive and also they get upset easily. I'm sure same goes for the guys but not as much as the girls. Guys when they get upset they just tend to push their girlfriends away and just go on with life. Meanwhile girls tend to keep it to themselves and just cry over it. It breaks a girls heart when the guy tends to push the girl away.
A relationship works both ways. *sigh*

Christmas was just a simple one... 

My family is down... Family which means Mum, Uncle Roland, Uncle Richard, Aunty Yee Mei, Uncle Gerard, Aunty Fauziah, Arianna and Ashley but they only came on Christmas Day itself so I went for Christmas Eve mass in S.F.X. and Christmas eve dinner was with the boyfriend's family... 

On Christmas Day itself was with my family but our dinner was combined with one of my neighbour's... Which is the Abot's family... Two family... hahaha... Sounds fun rite... yeah... there were so many food and I swear that I already put on weight... That means FAT!!!! *oh-no*

Then off to the boyfriend's aunty's house for Christmas dinner! yeah ate twice in a row... 

The the next day 26th December, was Nat-nat's house for Christmas dinner... Then off to Deirdre's pub for her parent's anniversary and also for Christmas... *yeah was back late again... I mean very late*

On the 27th December, went for the Club Hitz Party at Barcelona... then after that was over to David's house for Christmas dinner... but we were late and it was around 4am already... When we arrived they were all gambling... After that the boys wanted to dip themselves in the jacuzzi... They couldn't figure out how to fill it up with the pam, sot they decided to fill it up with human hands... Carrying pail of water from inside the house to outside the house where the jacuzzi is... and also with the pipe water... It was hilarious watching them doing it though... Finally we went back at around 6.30am... Late again... *grinsss* 

That was basically my Christmas holidays... :) 

Today dinner again with the boyfriend's another part of the family... hehehe... The family is huge!!! :) I'm so full until I can barely fill my feet...

But overall I enjoyed myself... 

it's 3 days to go for christmas... :)

to all my dear friends,

Fabian and I would like to wish each and everyone of you a Merry Little Christmas and a Happy New Year...
Hope you all have a great one!
Love ya all...

Love Fabian and Me... :)

OMG!!!! Did I just abandoned my blog... *Whoops* Forgive me! hehehe...

Its just 6 days to Christmas!!!!! OMG!!!
yay!

anyway loads have happen...
and many were good things...

One was Gerard turn 22 the other day... and he got pretty much wasted! listening back to the story that how boyfriend, baba and jared brought him back home was just hilarious... It was just so funny... unlike me I do not have a camera, I don't have much of photos that night... Only baba and astrid had cameras... Since astrid has posted up the pictures now i'm just waiting for baba's pictures to be posted up.

Oh Kevin is back too! hahahaha.... he surprised all of us!

Anyway i'm going to get ready now... Got an interview to go to at 3pm... Wish me luck... :)

I have becoming a lazy bum in posting or updating my blog... *sigh*
What a disappointment... *I'm sorry*
Since I'm too bored at home, I shall particularly fill in some updates..

1. The boyfriend's father brought back two Shi Zu or Shih Tzu.. If that's how you spell it...
They are so cute and adorable... I do have pictures but it is in my phone.. and I can't seem to connect my phone to the PC. So pictures got to wait.. One is a female and they finally have decided to name is Sasha and the other is a male and it is known as Benji... :) Both are two months old... they are in the middle of teething and they practically bites and thing that they can get whole on... Yesterday it was biting my toes... damn painful!!!! Benji is sick at the moment... Coughing badly though... *Poor him...* Giving them medicines was funny... It's so funny they love their cough medicine... When we humans, hate it when it come to medicine time... They do a lot of pee-ing and poo-ing around the house and they defenitely won't do it in the cage... I actually can tell when they are about to do their business.. hahaha... Sasha when she finish with pee-ing, she loves to fall flat on her own pee... Where we have to wipe her all around after she done with her business... *silly her*

2. The boyfriend's finals are over! Thank God... Now he is on HOLIDAY... he is still sleeping... *snoring*

3. Its december already and i'm still not working...*sigh* official bummer...*grins* hopefully i'll get a job soon... been applying... *pray hard*

4. Everyone is back from everywhere... SO i guessed NANA is back but I haven't heard a word from her... So sad... I guess she is busy running around as she is a WIFE!!! Hopefully she calls!!! I miss her so badly and wanting to meet up with her! I shall just be patient and wait... I talked to her mother the other day and she will let nana know and also get her to call me!!!

Anyway.......... it's 21 days to Christmas! yipeeedoooo.... *jingle bells...jingle bells... jingle all the wayyyyyyyy....lalalala.....*