messed up!!!!!

Dear diary,
When everything is going so well, something is sure to pop out to destroy the happiness of my loved one. I wonder why everything can’t go smoothly. I know why we can’t have what we want every time but this is totally different. Everyday all I hear is screams and shouting and words I’m not suppose to hear. It hurts me when all this happen. The tears running down from the eyes are all I could see.

Bags are packed and everything is gone. All I could hear is cries of anger and sadness in her. Now I’m being frustrated that my phone rings not for me but for her. People looking for her up and down through me and all she could do are ignoring the phone call on my mobile phone. What am I suppose to say to all of them? Should I lie? Why bother teaching me to be a good person if you want me to lie to others? Why do I have to be the middle person? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

I hate to be in this place now. My door that connects to the outside is locked. I’m shutting myself from everyone like how she does it to other people. It’s like prison here. I feel like going out somewhere to ease my mind but where?????????? There is no where I can go now and also with who I don’t know. I wish that I could just fly out of the window now. Fly to where I want to be now. *sigh*

Do you think I need to be patient? Don’t tell me to be patient. I had enough of this actually. I’m always being the middle person. Go away now! I just need to be alone. I don’t want to be involved with everything that is going on now!

BYE~