mixed up feeling..

yesterday was not a really good day for me...*sigh*

It was my late father's birthday...

i really miss him sooo much... wish he is still around... i really want to share with him a lot of things... tell him stories like how he use to tell me stories to put me to bed...
i really miss that a lot...
i miss being in his arms...
i miss being kissed by him to say good-bye or before i leave for school...
i miss it when he comes and pick me up from school, tuition...
i miss it when he sends me off to school...
i miss it when he brings me to his work place...
i miss lying in bed beside him...
i miss the smell of my dad...
i miss having him around...
i miss calling him...
i miss saying the word daddy...
i miss everything about my daddy...
i miss you sooo much daddy...

i love you daddy...
happy birthday...
may you rest in peace...
*sigh*

other than that it is my anniversary...

happy anniversary!!!!!!
weeee....

anyway i just wanna say thank you for everything...
it means a lot too me...
im really sorry ive been a pain in the ass this past few weeks...
hope youll forgive me...
thank you for putting up with my crap...
love yah...