Sometimes I just miss those times that I could even say a something without upsetting you or even by making you angry. *sigh*
Sometimes I feel that I'm the useless one that does not know how to appreciate things around me. Sometimes I feel that your friends are more important than myself.
Sometimes you make me feel that my feelings are not important at all anymore. How do I keep my feelings in a box?
When I feel like talking to you about how I feel, you just turn a deaf ear, push me away as in silence or just get mad at me for feeling that way. Is it wrong to tell you how how I feel?
Every time I feel down, you make me think that is it my fault that I choose to feel that way. I feel that you don't tend yo direct my thoughts and just let me go on thinking on the negative thoughts.
Sometimes you make me feel that I regret telling you how I feel.
When I start tearing , you tend not to wipe it dry and ask me 'Why?' but instead you just let me go on crying.
Shouldn't you be the one drying my tears up?
Shouldn't you be the one to cheer me up?
At the end of the day, these are just thoughts running through my mind. Thoughts that is suppose to be erase but can't seem to forget. Aren't we suppose to share, listen and give each other support or courage? Right now, I'm don't know which one though.
But still, at the end of the day, I still love you so much that I can't just give up on you. Is it worth it? I don't know. No matter how hurtful the words you use against me, I just find it so hard just to hate you. Sometimes I think about all the words you used, is it because you want to push me away from your life or just to teach me a lesson? I hope it does not mean anything or the first one that came up to my mind. If it is a lesson, I'm sure that this is the hardest way to learn.
*Sigh*
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