had enough!

Cant it just go!!!!
I'm getting really pist off now!!!
Can't she stop doing this to us???
Why must it happen to us now!!!!!
wtf~!!!

GO AWAY BITCH!!!

shoo~

I want the pain to go away.
I dont want to feel this way.
Please take it away!

messed up!!!!!

Dear diary,
When everything is going so well, something is sure to pop out to destroy the happiness of my loved one. I wonder why everything can’t go smoothly. I know why we can’t have what we want every time but this is totally different. Everyday all I hear is screams and shouting and words I’m not suppose to hear. It hurts me when all this happen. The tears running down from the eyes are all I could see.

Bags are packed and everything is gone. All I could hear is cries of anger and sadness in her. Now I’m being frustrated that my phone rings not for me but for her. People looking for her up and down through me and all she could do are ignoring the phone call on my mobile phone. What am I suppose to say to all of them? Should I lie? Why bother teaching me to be a good person if you want me to lie to others? Why do I have to be the middle person? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

I hate to be in this place now. My door that connects to the outside is locked. I’m shutting myself from everyone like how she does it to other people. It’s like prison here. I feel like going out somewhere to ease my mind but where?????????? There is no where I can go now and also with who I don’t know. I wish that I could just fly out of the window now. Fly to where I want to be now. *sigh*

Do you think I need to be patient? Don’t tell me to be patient. I had enough of this actually. I’m always being the middle person. Go away now! I just need to be alone. I don’t want to be involved with everything that is going on now!

BYE~

adeh~

pain pain pain pain pain....
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
period cramps...
now i know why was i always moody...
:D

yay~

I pass my interview!!!!

YAY~

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...~

PMS~

I'm having my PMS!!!!!!!!!! I'm moody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK laaaaaaaaaaaa..

p/s: I just saw two crows fucking each other while walking back from class back to my hostel block.......... First time actually see-ing birds having sex...wakakaka...=)

speechless...

What shall I say about this word.. To me i'm currently speechless with words!

It's been quite sometime since I last blog a real thing... All I could say was few words and later bye... Such a boring life though...

I don't know what is up with me this few days... Is the evil or the angel spirit over me? I myself wonder... I can be really mean at times and good like wise... Am I good or bad? Hmmm.... I havent been myself this pass few weeks... I dont know what is bothering me... I wish I knew what is going on with me? Am I about to transform into an animal?? *sigh* Why do I have to feel like this...? Can anyone tell me why??? ahaha.... I doubt anyone can tell me...

Thats is one thing... The other is :
They are times when I actually felt like i'm loosing my friends. Sad hor?? Sometimes I feel left out among them... I don't know what they are talking about... You know the OUTCAST~ Thats what normally people call them... I always feel like i'm the last to know about things... I dont mind not being the attention of others cause I DONT WANT TOOOO.... but I don't like to be left out... like the last resort...

assignments??? current ones...
1. I have to come up with a new design for my packaging of a product... Got to consult again tomorrow for better ideas...
2. I have to create a flash banner about promoting cars...
3. Now my journal entries... Are not been completed cause my file is always not with me... Planning to do it during the holidays...

others:
1. Design t-shirt for swim club... Love doing this though...
2. National dance tags and posters...
3. SLeep~

hahaha... The tired one is the most important though..
hahaaha.... I'm such a pig though...*oink oink*

Yesterday I had butterflies in my stomach... Went for interview... Well no need to know for what though... Will let u know later la...

And lastly...Its already week 7... Next week is mid-term break...YAY *hurray*
Cant wait...
I already though that today is Thursday~ That bad right? hehehe... okay la...
I shall stop feeling sooooooo misery~

Laterz~

blood drive donation..

hey...

Once again I can't donate blood... My hemoglobin level is still low... *sigh* soooo sad... My fourth attempt to donate... I think I won't be ale to donate blood forever... *sigh*

Anyway...one week more and were on midterm break...

Nothing much has been happening that I should write in here though...

Assignments and more assignments...

This upcoming week are most likely going to be consultation week with the lecturers... hehehhee...

Currently down with a headache.. I think i'm coming down with a fever...

Later la....
tired~

7th Month Anniversary~

It's been quite sometime since I last blog... SORRY~ Been really busy and the connection in campus is really slow...

WELL..... Today is our anniversary~ WEEEEE~

Dear B,

See how time flies soooo fast... It's our anniversary...

Happy Anniversary B...

Thank you for everything...

My life could not be this happy without you...

'I LOVE YOU'

Thank you for being very understanding towards me...

*mwah*

*hugs*

Love always,

your baby...

blueks~

CMC ice breaking was a bomb~ I love this picture... Azie shaaaayang and mE... =)

sorry havent been updating my blog due to numbers of meeting in a week and assignments...

sorry~ laterz... im off to bed now and class is at 9.30 am...

*sigh*
* yawn*

Ice Blender...

it's tomorrow...!!!! weeeee...it's all about fun~!!!!

Tagged Qs~

Tagged by littlewhitemushroom *DAMN*

RULES: do the following without complains. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged. Start you post by, "I have been tagged" then do this.

YOUR TEN FAVOURITES:
colors: baby blue, purple, pink, black and of course white.
food: unpredictable.
song(s): changes regularly. =D
movies: as long its not horror!!!
sports: swimming, running, jumping around*does this count as sports?hehehe...*
season: Love winter and also summer.....*love the beach*
flavours: vanilla, chocolate chip, cookies and cream and strawberry...yum yum...know i feel like eating ice cream...
countries: Aussie, Hong Kong, Bangkok, London~
things: my baby pillow...cannot sleep in peace without it...=)

YOUR NINE CURRENTS:
current mood: Now= happy...but lately feeling sad~
current clothes: my very 1st green t-shirt... my fave jeans...and ofcourse bra and panties....T_T
current desktop: picture of my B and me.... edited by me
current toe nails: im too lazy to paint my nails now...
current time: 6.19pm
current annoyance: none~
current thoughts: Assignments. Assignments. Going out. Shopping.
current songs: Soundtracks from Musical High school and Tokyo Drift.
current chatter: none~

YOUR 8 FIRSTS:
Girlfriend: Amalina, Joyoki and Adilah
crush: a boy from Hartamas when i was in form 1.
movie: I can't remember.
piercing: When i was 7 years old.
lie: When i was 7 i think...=D
music: Nursery Rhymes. ABC.....
toy: Lego and Barbie.
cry: 23rd October 1986.

YOUR 6 LASTS:
last drink: Teh O Ais
last car ride: Mirul's chomel car.
last crush: Nicholas Ong Soon Keat...
last movie seen: When a Stranger Call....*my room-mate watch i also watch loooo....*
last phone call: my B...
last cd played: i dunno...

5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
answered already...

4 THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY:
i. Went for class.
ii. Continue sleeping.
iii. Went for lunch.
iv. Now chilling at mirul's house.

3 THINGS YOU HEAR RIGHT NOW:
i. COnversation among all of them....
ii. the pc fan....
iii. incoming msges from ym...*yahoo messenger*

THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
i. My mobile phone.
ii. Musics, Movies, PCs, Bed.

1 THING I DO WHEN I'M BORED:
Sleep, SmS my B, Chill with my friends...

WHO I WANT TO DO THIS:
Sophia, Stacy, Walter, Adilah, Dayana, Afzan, Umair....*hehehe...im being evil....miahahhaa...*

sad or happy?

I don't know what I am feeling right now....

Sad or Happy??
Which one....?
Basically i'm half sad...

WHY?
1. aunty linda(my second mum) just came out from surgery.... aunty linda is diagnose with cancer...*sigh* please to pray for her... hope she will get well soon... seeing her lying on the bed could not be able to move, my eyes became watery... its painful to see her have to go through it but it's life... no one can stop it... my late father was diagnose with liver cancer too... unfortunately my late father could not be operated so he went for one kimo therapy... he made through it but later the side effects affected his body imune system...

2. I DUNNO what else is bothering me!!

3. I'm having my period cramps...

4. Sophia is going back soon!!=( *uwaaaaaaaaaaaa*

5. NoT enough money to go shopping...

6. feeling left out among my friends...*sigh*

Happy??
1. Cause I get to spend time with my B!!!=)

2. I'm back home for the weekends...


I'm TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can actually hear my bed calling me...

tired~

hey.. im back from our very own FIRST library~

walk around, observing products and all... its was great though... i actually look at one product for a very long time... hahaha... last time was just see and walk off... now its like see and observe before walking off...

B came and surprised me...never thought he would come... i walked with sophia... yeah my cousin... my friends went other directions... felt sad though didnt walk together... i was like a stranger there...*sigh*

i shall stop sighing and get dress...meeting in an hours time...

damn~

good morning~
my day starts when my nose starts sneezing... sad hor?? wahhh... i must actually make sure that i have enough tissue paper in my bag or not ill get really uncomfortable with my nose...

the first thing i saw my watch i thought it was already 8.45am... knowing it was that time it was late...so i rush to the toilet and took my morning shower... when i got back from the shower i starred at my computer clock, i saw it was only 8.15am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

for all that rushing and it was like onl 8.15am... *sigh*

today all the MI students are gonna go on our very first visit to the library~
which is........MIDVALLEY!!! hehehehe...
hurray~

i shall be getting dress now..
laterz~

happy 6th month anniversary...

dear B,

happy 6th month anniversary B...

thank you for everything..

from putting up with my moodyness and my hyperness...

sorry if i have ever said anything to hurt your feelings...

im really happy that you came into my life...

thank you...

i love you...

love your baby pwincess...

orientation week~

well... finally i found the time to upload few photos of orientation...

oreintation week and the binding camp was great...i had funand never regret...

*aimran n me *

*nicky and me*after closing ceremony....

*group photo..thats what we are best at...hehehe...*

*we are too vain...hehehe...picture taken by thulasi..*

*the two shorty...*

*were too vain...taking pictures is what we do...*

*raja trying to be the tallest among all*

*dont we look sweet??wink wink*

*hmmm....can anyone see me??? shuk my mobile OC patner...*

hey peeps...
sorry havent been blogging...
its been long since i last blog..

now is back to studying...
semester breaks are over and no more holidays...
binding camp and orientation week is over...*sniff sniff*

im starting to miss orientation week...
okay la...i just started class and its all good...
will updated more soon...
mwah~

back~!!!

heyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

i'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey peeps...
I'm back from my very short vacation...*sigh*
I have been eating since I got to Singapore...Eat and eat and eat was what I did during the whole holiday... So I won't be surprise that if anyone comes up to me and say I put on weight... 'Yes I get your point I'm fatter!!!!'

Tomorrow I'll be heading back to MMU again for my brand new semester... Well I'm already in gamma year... WOW... how fast time flies... the next thing is graduation... hehehe...

Yesterday was my grandpa's 69th birthday... Woke up at 7 in the morning to celebrate kong's (my grandpa) birthday... the smile on his face was the smile that I haven't seen it for a long time... the house phone didn't stop ringing as it was grandpa's birthday... All his sons and daughters called to wish... So I was practically an operator for the day... hehehe... Later after lunch we went to Wild Wild Wet (a water theme park in Singapore) as mum promised Ashley and Arianna. I enjoyed myself there. Ashley and Arianna pretty much had fun... After the theme park, we can all see Ashley was exhausted. Her hyper ness all gone but the day didn't just ended there and then...

I had dinner with the whole family which included Kong-Kong, Uncle Richard, Mum, Uncle Roland, Uncle Gerard, Aunty Fauziah, Kakak, Arianna, and Ashley. We had Japanese Food for dinner... There we a lot of food on the tab... I was just helping myself with all the food... hehehe...*being a pig again... heehehe...*

That wasn't it though... My mum told me that I had to follow her to the doctors!!!!

DOCTORS it seems...!!!!

I ended up in Orchard Tower. Orchard Tower is full of 'pondans'!!!!! Yes I'm serious…. my mum dragged me to watch a pondan show!!!! (Adoi *stretch head*)
But........... I did enjoy seeing them dancing though... hahaha... the jokes they make damn funny though... I could still laugh even though my knee hurts like hell... I couldn't walk or put my leg straight... I felt like crying only... We got back around 2am... Late right??? Hehehehehe... In Singapore you would find me sleeping by 11pm and I'll be awake around 8am or 8.30am the latest... (",)

I went shopping of course in Singapore... I did help my uncle out...

That was basically what I did though during the holidays... hehehe...

Tonight I'll spend my time with my B though...Tomorrow have to go back to MMU already...
*sniff sniff*

I shall stop here...
Mwahhh~
Laterz...