A beautiful pray..

I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly caresand brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own! ,but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.

THIS DAY IS YOURS DON'T THROW IT AWAY

May God Bless You,
"To the world you might be one person, but to oneperson you just might be the world"

dear diary...

yesterday kong went back to singapore... so now im home alone and its sooo lonely... sigh... i miss my grandpa... i pray that he will be safe throughout the whole journey... anyway i hv to start unpacking... i had a good sleep last nite... hehehe... yay!! finally...so now i hv to clean my whole room and i have to arrange the stuff properly...coz i brought back some stuff from campus...

later la...

dear diary...

the last time i blog was on the 18 april... damn long rite... sorry la.. was really busy with my assignment and all... submission tomorrow... im sitting here in my room wishing and praying that che mat is in a better mood than today...

loads have been happening around here...

1. Submission is tomorrow and i finish already doing it...

*there are more pictures but im toooooo lazy to upload loads of them...


3. Quicksilver Revolution Tour ....
I got free tickets.... It was at Sunway Lagoon... So all of us brought our ass to Sunway Lagoon... A wonderful day trip... B, me, mingwei, kristen, natalie, justin, navin went... I saw loads of people i know too... hehehe... lost friends i call it... hehehe.... had sooo much fun though... really enjoyed myself...

4. hmmm....had an arguement with mummy...*sigh*

5. Last but not least...
I cut my hair short!!!!! really short!!! yesh i mean SHORT!!!! boy cut short!!! hehhee...
wanna see??? hehhee...ill upload it soon...

okayh la......i wanna help my two room-mates and marissa do thier assignment..peace out...
mwahhh~

dear diary...

its been a week i think... now im currently not asleep becoz im doing my maya...have to submit later... im tired...stress...sleepy...worried! luckily im not barred from MCA subject...i got hostel for next year academic year...i got OC *which stands for Orientation Committee* for the new batch of student.... i miss my b... last weekend i have been going to church with B coz he wants me to be there with him... he served on good friday mass... mum's birthday turn out to be ok... im getting her greese tickets for her birthday present... uncle richard was down for the weekend so he was there for mum's birthday... brought kong out... went shooping with uncle richard... bought a new printer at the pc fair... =)

now...all i can think of is all my assignments...
1. mdp...
2. lcc (poster)
3. mca *final assignment*
4. mcc *final assignment*
5. mpm*editting*
6. study for mlc final exam...
7. lastly is....mci *final assignment*

i have to do more research for my mdp!!!! stop watching series or any movie for the mean time!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tomolo is 2nd ACAA!!! finally...wanna get that over with and concertrate more on ym assignments...

okeyh la..i shall stop...
mwahhhhhhhhhh...

dear diary,

im back home again... hehehe... today holiday... thats why im back home... i love being home... grandpa is around somemore... im sooooooooooooooooooo tired... my shoulder hurts...my neck hurts and my back hurts like a mad cow... hehehe...
im off to bed after playing pool with b online...
mwahhh...
nitez...

dear diary,

what a day... mum cooked sarawak laksa... i had a really heavy lunch... b and ming wei came for lunch... hehehe... tiring day though... im still back home and i dont wanna go back to campus... but i have too... i have class tomolo... but tuesday is a holiday! hehehe... i did my cover letter and my resume for my lcc assignment... now i think i should get ready to head back to mmu... laterz... mwahhh...

dear diary...

my group finally finish shooting... now its editing time... but i dunno when are we going to edit the video... anyway im really tired... assignments not done yet!!! im doomed!!!

this poem is for my b!

I am forever yours...
because when
you hold me,
I feel like
nothing else
matters
more than the love
I've found with you.

I am forever yours...
because only
with you can I
capture a moment
where I know
what it's like
to feel heaven,
only with you
have I ever felt
so safe, so loved.

dear diary,
good morning...
damn i didnt attend mdp class... i couldnt wake up...
was soooo exhausted...
went for shooting the whole day yesterday... my energy was worn out yesterdday... but the time i lied on the bed i was drop dead... i couldnt feel my head and toes at the end of the day... my eyes was sooo heavy...
okayh la... need to do my assignment now... laterz....

dear diary,

i have been reallly patient... but when it is over the limit... ill burst... among me and my group members, they are making it my fault... when i say something... they just have to say why last minute and everything... one fucking bloody reason why i wanted everyone to follow is basically to discuss this n that n this that!!!!!!!! now some of my bloody group member say why last minute... this that this that... why we didnt plan early... when wanna have meeting.... no one is free la...this that this that... yea i know lack of communication... theres one person im close to in my group, now also we mcm tak rapat... sedih tau... when ever i wanna say stuff... she always gives me the look and brush me away... how am i suppose to explain when people are like that to me... why cant they give me a chance to bloody fucking explain... if thats testing your patient... what is this?? where the fuck is the group work that we have talked about? our bloody group name is about team work... when we have discussion... mesti ader disagreement and show long face... i know there will be disagreement... but just dont fucking show your fucking long face... why dont YOU be the director of all place...?? not eveyrhting can go your way... even me i have to soetimes follow you all nyer agreement this and that... communication error... when we wanna try to get hold of one another thats one big fucking problem..
dah la...
fuck la~!!!

dear diary,
finally finish my maya assignment... i actually finish animating few shit in it... damn susah... now i just wanna lie in bed and sleep... badly need sleep... i can actually hearing my bed calling me... my b is already in bed... he is tired... was working the whole day... poor thing...

b..
You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything
Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know
You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time...

I love you B...
..mwahhh...

dear diary,

what a day... stress!!!!! i badly need a break!!! im serious!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... im sooo tired today... running up and down... but one thing is done... voice over recording is done!!! hurray!!! at least one thing is done... im currently waiting for my maya to render... i think im almost done... i just simple do as long i submit it only... i need to sleep... thats all that matters rite now... laterz...

dear diary,

im back in mmu and i feel like going back home... i wonder if im home sick... *sigh* why are the weekends damn short... i want it to be longer... i want to spend more time at home instead back in mmu... *uwaaaaaa* im like a cry baby now... my eyes and nose are red... really red... i bet if tomorrow (i mean later) i wake up my eyes are gonna be swollen... marissa is actually giving us free face treatment for us... hehehe... yeah... i just found out that i hv three pimples popping out!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... dont like! dont like!
hehehe..
i better head off to bed now... later aite..
mwahhh..

so long and gud nite...

dear diary,

im like my moody mood!! fuck everything la...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...!!!!

dear diary...
goooooood morning... i had a gud sleep but my shoulder aches again~ *sigh* i have to get ready soon... b is taking me out fo lunch... hurray... cant wait though... mwahhh...

to my B,
you mean the world to me... thank you for bringing the light into my life... you have been rushing up and down for me to see me... that i thank you... i really appreciate what you have done for me... there is sooo much to say but in short... I LOVE YOU!

dear diary...
what a day... brought kong to church and than had dinner at home... mom cooked... b, ming wei, kristen and gavin came... uncle george and the kids came also... after a while they were all over b... they were climbing onto b to sit on him... i guess they love b too... hehehe...they were partically fighting for their turn to sit on b... ming wei also kena... hehehe... anyway the food was gooooood.... thanks to mummy... she is a great cook... they enjoyed themselves... playing with my cousins... gavin got tricked by uncle roland and uncle george.... kristen also kena... haahahaha.... damn funny man! laugh until my stomach hurts... its all cause of laughing sooo much... they just went off... b actually ask mummy whether he could bring me out for lunch... yay... at least i can spend my weekend with b... heehhe.... okay la im really worn out... really tired...

so long and good nite....
mwahhh...

dear diary,

good morning... or shall i say good afternoon... im like doing three things at one time... going online, watching tee-v, and drawing... hehehe.... im this cool animatin movie this morning... its call the arc... not bad la... i bet they use maya to do all that... its sooo nice... im not the type of person who watches this type of movie but i find this pretty amuse... its something like final fantasy but this one its just different than final fanasy... heehe... im waiting for my turn to bath than im going out for lunch... i made breakfast for kong... hehehe... he is gonna be in kl fr about a month though... in the mean time i dont think mum is going out-station when kong is around...
okay la... i shall finish shading this and off i go to the bathroom to have a warm shower...

+satisfied+

dear diary,
today is april fools day... do i feel like fooling anyone??? the answer is NO! im not in the mood of fooling anyone or i just hope no one is gonna fool me.. im afraid that i will just snap at them... im currently not in a good mood... i think im having my pms! i hate it though... i think azie is mad at me... which i dont know why... *sigh* i just dont know what to do anymore... *sigh* im soo tired... my shoulder is starting to ache already... b has started work yesterday... at least now he has something to doduin the holidays besides going out... hehehe... my grandpa is here in kl... he was in singapore before he came to kl... he is now enjoying himself watching tee-v... its like really late and he is still watching tee-v... last nite mum cooked crab for dinner... kong (my grandpa) reall ate a lot though... my mum is surprise and happy to see my grandpa eat though... b came for dinner yesterday... just now we had dinner in usj with uncle geogre, aunty marianne, maria, gwen, madeline, uncle roland, mum, and timothy... we brought kong for dinner... had fun though... maria put on weight though... the last time i saw her, she was skinny... now a bit chubbier.. im stuffed with loads of food... just finish discussing about few stuff with my group members... *IM SORRY AZIE*
i woke up quite early though... had to go to the bank to settle some stuff... paid up my first year loan... felt relieved though... if i do not pay up the first year loan... the ammount to pay back when i wait will be more... *sakit hati wor*
okay la... i shall stop now... maybe later in the da day time, maria n gwen is comin...
aite... gud nite...