The last post of year 2008!!

It's the last day of the year 2008...
Many things has happen throughout the whole year... Many were good...and not to mention there were bad times too...

Anyway it's all in the past... and I'm looking forward to the new year, new beginning...
Let's see....

Yesterday Astrid and I cooked for Kristen. as we might not make it for her birthday which is on the 1st January... We cooked for like so many people but only Kristen*the birthday girl*, Astrid, Hamish, the boyfriend and me... hahahaha... it was like a feast before opening a new chapter in life for the next year... hehehe... Sadly we didn't manage to take any pictures as everyone dive in to eat... *We feeding the hungry stomachs*

I have already started doing the jigsaw puzzle that I bought in One Utama on Boxing Day... :) Enjoying myself... That is one thing I still love to do and I'm surprise I have the patience for it... :)
At least something that I'm patience at... hehehe...*something that I've gotta work on it*

Anyway I shall better stop... Need some rest... Yesterday stayed up until so late... :)

Before I forgot... and if I do not have the chance.... I'm taking this opportunity to wish each and everyone of you a very Happy New Year... I'm sorry if I have done anything wrong or hurt anyones feeling in the year 2008!!! To anyone who wants to turn a new leaf, I say it's best to do this new year! :) Good luck and all the best for the new year....

Cheers to the new beginning!
Happy New Year peeps!
Wishing that everyone will have a great 2009 year...

Love, Fabian and Deena. <3>
Bye bye 2008...

Hello 2009!!!

Who am I suppose to turn too when I'm feeling down and sad?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I'm feeling angry?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I'm feeling happy?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I don't know where I stand?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I feel that I am no one?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I feel like I'm useless?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I want to share my thoughts?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I feel like talking?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I have an argument?
Who am I suppose to turn too when I don't understand anything?
Who am I suppose to turn too to teach me?
Who am I suppose to turn too to feel love?
Who am I suppose to turn too to feel wanted around?
Who am I suppose to turn too to feel cared?
WHO AM I SUPPOSE TO TURN TOO???

Sometimes how a girl feel is how I feel. Girls are sensitive and also they get upset easily. I'm sure same goes for the guys but not as much as the girls. Guys when they get upset they just tend to push their girlfriends away and just go on with life. Meanwhile girls tend to keep it to themselves and just cry over it. It breaks a girls heart when the guy tends to push the girl away.
A relationship works both ways. *sigh*

Christmas was just a simple one... 

My family is down... Family which means Mum, Uncle Roland, Uncle Richard, Aunty Yee Mei, Uncle Gerard, Aunty Fauziah, Arianna and Ashley but they only came on Christmas Day itself so I went for Christmas Eve mass in S.F.X. and Christmas eve dinner was with the boyfriend's family... 

On Christmas Day itself was with my family but our dinner was combined with one of my neighbour's... Which is the Abot's family... Two family... hahaha... Sounds fun rite... yeah... there were so many food and I swear that I already put on weight... That means FAT!!!! *oh-no*

Then off to the boyfriend's aunty's house for Christmas dinner! yeah ate twice in a row... 

The the next day 26th December, was Nat-nat's house for Christmas dinner... Then off to Deirdre's pub for her parent's anniversary and also for Christmas... *yeah was back late again... I mean very late*

On the 27th December, went for the Club Hitz Party at Barcelona... then after that was over to David's house for Christmas dinner... but we were late and it was around 4am already... When we arrived they were all gambling... After that the boys wanted to dip themselves in the jacuzzi... They couldn't figure out how to fill it up with the pam, sot they decided to fill it up with human hands... Carrying pail of water from inside the house to outside the house where the jacuzzi is... and also with the pipe water... It was hilarious watching them doing it though... Finally we went back at around 6.30am... Late again... *grinsss* 

That was basically my Christmas holidays... :) 

Today dinner again with the boyfriend's another part of the family... hehehe... The family is huge!!! :) I'm so full until I can barely fill my feet...

But overall I enjoyed myself... 

it's 3 days to go for christmas... :)

to all my dear friends,

Fabian and I would like to wish each and everyone of you a Merry Little Christmas and a Happy New Year...
Hope you all have a great one!
Love ya all...

Love Fabian and Me... :)

OMG!!!! Did I just abandoned my blog... *Whoops* Forgive me! hehehe...

Its just 6 days to Christmas!!!!! OMG!!!
yay!

anyway loads have happen...
and many were good things...

One was Gerard turn 22 the other day... and he got pretty much wasted! listening back to the story that how boyfriend, baba and jared brought him back home was just hilarious... It was just so funny... unlike me I do not have a camera, I don't have much of photos that night... Only baba and astrid had cameras... Since astrid has posted up the pictures now i'm just waiting for baba's pictures to be posted up.

Oh Kevin is back too! hahahaha.... he surprised all of us!

Anyway i'm going to get ready now... Got an interview to go to at 3pm... Wish me luck... :)

I have becoming a lazy bum in posting or updating my blog... *sigh*
What a disappointment... *I'm sorry*
Since I'm too bored at home, I shall particularly fill in some updates..

1. The boyfriend's father brought back two Shi Zu or Shih Tzu.. If that's how you spell it...
They are so cute and adorable... I do have pictures but it is in my phone.. and I can't seem to connect my phone to the PC. So pictures got to wait.. One is a female and they finally have decided to name is Sasha and the other is a male and it is known as Benji... :) Both are two months old... they are in the middle of teething and they practically bites and thing that they can get whole on... Yesterday it was biting my toes... damn painful!!!! Benji is sick at the moment... Coughing badly though... *Poor him...* Giving them medicines was funny... It's so funny they love their cough medicine... When we humans, hate it when it come to medicine time... They do a lot of pee-ing and poo-ing around the house and they defenitely won't do it in the cage... I actually can tell when they are about to do their business.. hahaha... Sasha when she finish with pee-ing, she loves to fall flat on her own pee... Where we have to wipe her all around after she done with her business... *silly her*

2. The boyfriend's finals are over! Thank God... Now he is on HOLIDAY... he is still sleeping... *snoring*

3. Its december already and i'm still not working...*sigh* official bummer...*grins* hopefully i'll get a job soon... been applying... *pray hard*

4. Everyone is back from everywhere... SO i guessed NANA is back but I haven't heard a word from her... So sad... I guess she is busy running around as she is a WIFE!!! Hopefully she calls!!! I miss her so badly and wanting to meet up with her! I shall just be patient and wait... I talked to her mother the other day and she will let nana know and also get her to call me!!!

Anyway.......... it's 21 days to Christmas! yipeeedoooo.... *jingle bells...jingle bells... jingle all the wayyyyyyyy....lalalala.....*

Bye bye November... And hello to December!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....
Christmas is coming!!!!
yiiiipppppeeeeee...... pressie time.. hehehe...

It has been a hectic end of the month in November... So many things happening...
*and i'm too lazy to blog...*

24 days more to Christmas!! :)

Let's see what do I have to say today....
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*My head is blank*

Nothing at all. I can't think of anything to type about but I'm actually sitting here in Starbucks, One Utama waiting for the boyfriend finish what he is doing.

Just as I start to think I do have a lot to write about...
I'm actually falling sick. My throat hurts. It is so painful that it's so hard to talk and eat but I still want to eat. My stomach is calling out for food. Weird me! and FATTY me!
BUTTTTT.... Yesterday, we went for banana leave for dinner. We ate so much... until my stomach bloated!

I have been helping Marcia with her holiday programme for kids... I've been helping out for the whole week this week from 2 to 4pm... That's what I've been doing for the pass week... I pretty much enjoyed myself and hope the kids too... Today was something different as we cooked with them... I think they did enjoy themselves with all the flour messed up on the table... Some are so cute, EXTREMELY quiet, EXTREMELY noisy, and there are also some that are EXTREMELY shy... Got to make them comfortable with the surrounding though...

My head is spinning now... I just wish there is a bed here and I can just lie down and snuggle... hehehhe... that would be lovely actually...

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back to empty thoughts...

After putting some thoughts... It was either Sony Ericsson C902 or Nokia 6600 Slide.... And I came to my conclusion that I should get a slide phone... After all this while I have been using the normal one and the flip so why not try a slide... Soooooo......
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This is my NEW phone... Waaaallaaaaa.... hehehe...

Brand new and it cost RM 1409.00!!!!
I'm loving it...

Christmas is around the corner...
It means SHIT!!! Cause I have got to think of what to get for the boyfriend, and the rest as mummy got her present already... The most expensive among all the presents I ever gave her... There was the only ticket left and it was the most expensive one... Well, mummy loveed it. I'm glad that she loved it... So one down from my Christmas present list... Sorry I could only afford one ticket so, you have got to go alone... I'm really sorry! Wish I could go too but it's okay...

Well, mum hope you will enjoy the show. I know you'll enjoy yourself... Love you!

I can't believe it but i'm currently watching Naruto with the boyfriend and the brother on the pc... I don't even know what is going on, as I'm getting confused through out the whole time... Rather to just keep quiet and start blogging though... Didn't really want to ask questions as it would interrupt them and annoy them... Didn't want to do that though... I'm so not an anime fan. *giggles* I shall stick to my english TV series... :)

....the boyfriend's mum is back with food.

I'm getting fat each day... OMG!!! It's not working! Tell me how to say no to food??? Please anyone..

...got to go now. Later~

Watch this... This is damn funny...
Hope it cheers anyone up... Enjoy!

Maple at Midnight...

You are the air I need to breathe
the river of life inside of me
you are the half that made me whole
you are the anchor of my soul

and you are strong when I am weak
you are the words when I can't speak
you never fail to see me through
that's the love I found in you

you are my shelter from the storm
you are the road that leads me home
and baby with you here face to face
Oh I know I've found my place

and you are strong when I am weak
you are the words when I can't speak
you never fail to see me through
that's the love I found in you

and once in every life
you find the one that's right
and when you say forever it's true
That's the love I found in you

You are strong when I am weak
you are the words when I can't speak
you never fail to see me through
That's the love I found in you

That's the love, love I found in you

Got tagged by Ms. Astrid haha!

Tag 6 people to do this quiz and THOSE WHO ARE TAGGED CANNOT REFUSE!
These people must state who they were tagged by and CANNOT TAG THE PERSON WHOM THEY WERE TAGGED BY.
Continue this game by sending it to others.

*Let's Begin*

I Was Tagged By:

Astrid Baptist...... *evil*

I tag:

Izzah
Kristen
Nanie *don't kill me*
Hasanah *don't kill me*
Stacy Tan

Lez Ann

*Let the Questions Begin*

1. What is your name?

* Deena Desmond

2. How old are you?

* urmmmmm.... TWO TWO... *but look 17... hehehe...*

3. What are the 3 electronics you can't live without?

* handphone

* laptop

* my mp4

4. Are you amazing?

* I'm not sure though... Am I???

5. What is the brand of the phone you are using?

* Sony Ericsson

6. What color is your phone?

* Black

7. Have you slept in school before?

* Every other day... Right in front of the class...

8. How long are you online in a day?

* The whole entire day...

9. How would you describe yourself?

* STUBBORN, sometimes annoying, sometimes irritating, friendly, caring, kind, lazy, fatty *yea I am*, shopaholic, loves to eat and eat and eat and......... *I can't think for anymore*

10. What's your favourite topic to talk about?

* Depends on the day and who am I talking too...

11. Which teacher do you like?

* Urmmmmm... I don't know...

12. Who do you think is the most handsomest in your class?

* I was in an ALL girls school... There was NOT even one guy except TWO guy teachers!

13. Who are you currently aiming on?

* Getting a job!

14. Do you know a lot of your sibling's secret?

* :( I don't have any sibling's at all... *wish I have...so I won't be lonely... and I'm NOT a pampered child!*

15. How do you rate your sibling?

* Please read above...

16. Is your sibling gorgeous?

* Please refer back to question no. 14!!!!

17. Do you judge people?

* I don't think so... but sometimes it happens naturally... but I'm trying not too...

18. Do you run?

* I want too! Burn out some fats of mine!

19. Are you lazy to tag people?

* Kinda... I'm not mean!!!

20. Who was the last person you spoke on the phone?

* The boyfriend...

21. What is 2 + 2?

* 4... *what's this got to do with all this question???*

22. Who is your idol?

* My mum and my late father...

23. Are you a monster?

* Hurmmmm... Maybe... If yes, what would you think? hehehehe....

24. Do you play with Barbie dolls?

* I USED to have... but I prefer LEGO! hehehe... *sooo tom-boy*

25. What was the last movie you watched?

* Quantum of Solace... *it sucked*

26. What do you think of your English?

* Good...??? I don't know... Poor??? I don't know... Learning to be better day by day...

27. What do you think about your Bahasa Malaysia?

* Better than my English but not as powerful as the rest!

28. Who do you hate?

* .................. *no one i think... I'm NICE*

29. Do you love yourself?

* I do... but NOT my fats!

30. Blurt out 5 ramdom words.

* Lazy, Sleep, Eat, Fat and Fat... *that's all I can think right now... hehehe...*

I was just reading around my friend's blog... and I saw this post from Izzah's blog...
It was really sweet of her... I really appreciate this... I almost teared from this post of hers.

Dear Izzah, Thank you for all this while when we were studying and during my university days...Thank you for being there for me when i'm down and when i'm in trouble and mostly my happy times. I love being with you and I love the times where we would just teach wach others things to say! hehehehe... I miss you and Shaza soooo much!!! Was so happy when you two came to my house... MWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Salam...

Hari ni, 23rd October, burfday deena... heheh..deena dah tua!!!

Deena Denise Anak Desmond Sahon a.k.a Deena. Izzah kenal deena waktu jadi SRC dulu coz deena pun one of the council members. Post deena kat bahagian Student Welfare and Development (SWAD) incharge bahagian Security.. Hebat deena ni waktu incharge security. Mmg sumer rules MMU dia hafal laaa...:D Dengan director Security MMU waktu tu lagi laa, kamceng giler.. hebat2...Rumah deena dekat jer ngan rumah izzah, kat pantai hillpark.. so, xdelaa rindu sgt coz kalo rindu, leh drop by jer kat rumah deena...:P

Hmm.. after jadi SRC 2006/2007, kitorang jadi roommate plaks untuk sesi 2007/2008. Pengalaman yang best sgt2 jadi rummate ngan deena. sepanjang kitorng jadi rumate, Deena banyak ajar izzah banyak perkara. Satu phrase yang izzah xkan lupa sampai biler2 n izzah guna sampai skarang, "Fine, be that way!" hehhe..ayat tu, deena yang ajar...:D

Seorang yang sangat rajin - deena laa yang slalu kemas bilik wkt sama2 rummate dgn dia dulu..:P Deena gaks seorang yang sangat caring - kalo izzah ade prob, slalu izzah rasa nak carik deena dulu. Skarang ni, lepas deena dah grad, slalu jer tetiba rindu kat deena, xtau nape. So, kalo tetiba rasa rindu kat deena tu, izzah slalu msg jer..:P hm,, skarang deena dah pandai masak. sedap deena masak. Pas ni, lehlaa slalu gi rumah deena, deena masakkan...:D

"To my dearie Deena,
Hepi Burfday! May God bless you. Trimas sangat2 jadi kawan Izzah. Banyak yang Izzah belajar from Deena. InsyaAllah, segala apa yang deena pesan, izzah xpenah lupa..Izzah sayang kat deena sgt3..take care,k.. love u..."

A night out with the boyfriend and Astrid! 

hehehe...

I dragged Astrid to Mardi Gras tonight as the boyfriend and I didn't want to just go there alone sitting at one corner... *I'm sorry Astrid!!! hehehe... you know I love you though....*

Wasn't what I expected though... It was EMPTY... Not many people as how MOS is... MOS is always pack with people though... We had a jug of beer though... We going there is for Kristen though... hehehe... She is working there... That's the only main reason why we went there...

Sadly, we weren't in the mood for cam-whoring! hahaha... *that's what we do if we hang out at night...*

Beside that, earlier today was pretty a tiring day though... The boyfriend and I followed his mother to Banting! BANTING!!!! It's an 'ulu' place though... It's so far! The drive there is like as though we were on the way to Malacca!!! Can you imagine!!! Damn far though... After the appointment, we went to Tg. Sepat for late lunch! Yeah!!! Never heard of that place before... It's damn far! I never thought that place existed! hahahahha... *stupid me*

Now I'm on the bed and ready to sleep!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeee...

sleeping time!!!

nite nite!!!! 

hey hey hey.. I'm back!!!
Astrid has been bugging me to update my blog... :P
and I'm just plain lazy to do so! hehehe...

October is over and now its November!!! wow! next will be December! how the year ends so fast!
Oh-my... looking back and think, I'm not pretty sure whether I have achieve anything besides graduating from MMU... hehehehe... That's why I never believed in 'NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION!'

Since then... I just decided to live my life as it is...

It's already November and I haven't found a job yet! Hopefully soon!! Keeping my fingers crossed!!! *Praying hard* I just send out my portfolio for viewing by one of the company in Bangsar and I'm hoping that I get a good respond! Need to start work immediately though as I'm running out of cash! I've finally updated my portfolio site... and it's here...

This pass few days, boyfriend, Astrid and me have been going to Jaya One... Kinda our new spot of 'lepaking' but in a sense that we are not drinking 'teh-o-ais' or 'teh-o suam'... Well Hoegaarden is the new Bestfriend for Astrid... hahahaha... Kevin came back for a day!!! So we all decided to have a drink there tooo..... *Curtosy of Astrid*

Yesterday Gerard got tickets for us for the Quantum of Solace's movie premier... Yeah it's out... but... I kinda feel disappointed with the whole movie... The first scene with the cars and the way he drives was awesome... but later in the movie there wasn't much 'cool' weapons used and mostly was using those little hand guns and hands! BUT... I just wanna say 'thank you Gerard!'

The last I posted up about my dream.... This time I had a dream again!! This time I was sent to JAIL!!! For what ever reason I have no clue though... *Extremelly weird*

Besides that... I have been hooked on with my complilation of series!!! I'm enjoying it!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

Tomorrow I might come up with the list of things I intend to do in the final of the year 2008 before it is 2009!! hehehe... *still thinking though*

Happy Halloween!!!!!!!!!!
Wonder whats my plan for Halloween though!

The weather is killing me!!!!
It's so HOT now a days!!!Rain please rain~

It's a good thing there is sun especially to dry the clothes but not so hot until you can feel the heat up to your bones!

This few nights I have been having weird dreams... First was the loosing of teeths... But last night was unusual... Murder Scenes! Someone killed a load of my friends... *shiver* including the boyfriend... I woke up at 6am, and called the boyfriend... *Sorry for disturbing your sleep though* I was just worried! *sigh*

What is wrong with me though... Weird and scary dreams...

As I was saying...

Things are different now with some of us...

It wasn't like how it use to be a month back...

*sigh*

Just wondering how can things be so different in such a short time!

i'm bored!!!

officially bored!!!

hahaha...

oh ya... here is the studio pictures of the make over yesterday! hehehe... *don't mummy and I look pretty* hehehe...

  

The day I turn the BIG 22!!!!!! 

*pictures will be posted soon as I get it from my mummy*

Mummy and the boyfriend planned everything... They planned a surprised birthday thingy for me! Was so happy and shocked! Some didn't come but some came... :)

I just wanna personally Mummy, the boyfriend for planning all this... hehehe... all the lies huh! hehehe... *little white lies* thank you so much... love you all loads...

Thank you to Nat nat, Baba, Gerard, Astrid, Steph, James, Jared, Kyle for coming too!~ *did i miss anyone out???* I'm sorry if i did! hehehe... 

The got me high in one cup of mixed whisky! hehehehe... was red as a tomato though... *beware pictures will be uploaded!*

On my birthday itself, Nat nat and the boyfriend brought me for lunch! We went to Curve for lunch... It's like a routine every year of my birthday we go for lunch at Curve... and then a little shopping! hehehe... looked for my birthday present from mummy... and finally to complete my night, the boyfriend brought me to watch another premier!!! hehehe...

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!!!!!!! hehehe... it's out! it was awesome! the production was awesome!!! the se t was so beautiful... hehehe... thumbs up though! hehehe...

That includes my birthday!

The next night Nat nat, Shri, the boyfriend and dominic got me DRUNK!!!!! 

The drinks kept coming non-stop!!!

First the beer, then dominic didn't like his Vodka Redbull... so I took over the drink!!!

I had to down it...

Then came Tequila shot from Nat nat... I had two!!! 2!!!

Then... Crouching Tiger... 2 SETs!!

Then some shots!!

Then.... some B52! 

That taste like shit and it mad me PUKE!! *yuck*

But I was still able to walk straight! 

I started being red!!! yeah!! like a lobster this time!

I love you NAt nat!!! hehehehe...

Thank you boyfriend for the flowers, the necklace... the surprise! and also the drinks!!!!!

*mwah mwah*  

now its really my little black journal...

*im hungry* but im not suppose to snack!!

lose 1kg in a week!! need to loose more!!
*go DEENA*

well... this is good news for a readers... there will be sale!!! hehehehe... go check it out... :) i might!

the shake makes me feel so full and bloated... im sitting here with my stomach so full!!!! can't move now...

being in the jam for 2 hours makes me sick! i wonder how can a person sit in the same place for more than 2 hours!!! i got restless and moving up and down around the car... i dont know how i managed to do it but i did it and the results of it was my headache!!! *car sick*

i have just realized that its almost the end of the year... time flies damn fast!!! soon it will be 2009!!! oh-shit!!!

*im getting sleepy already!!! *

...to be continued

aiming to lose weight!!! common girl!!! you can do it!!!

knee currently in pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:'(

I'm keeping myself occupied with all the series that has been aired... All my favorite series are back... weeeeeeeeeeeeeee... I'm so happy but downloading it from my home takes forever... i don't know why... but the boyfriend is helping me downloading as his download speed is way faster than mine... At the same time i am still an official bummer... Still looking for a job but i guess I'm not trying hard enough... I'm going to try as my mum is bugging, asking me when will i start working... there is so many things happening around me but... things change and we go on.. that's life.. is not a necessary to jot every single thing down here... :) memories are being kept in me... :)

i had a night-mare the other day... it was about me... and another person... i dreamt that the other person killed me after it found out that i moved on with my life as i was already happy with someone else... *sigh* i woke up immediately and realise that it was just a dream...

yesterday was the twin's bday...
and today is denise beins bday...

and tomorrow... i dont know... hahahaha...

yesterday i spent my time watching all me series and finally watched wall-e... its a damn boring movie!!! i almost fell asleep watching it... but thanks to my sudoku book, it kept me awake... all they were saying in the movie is wall-e... evaaaa... hahaha...

i shall get ready now... boyfriend is on the way to pick me up for lunch... weeeeee... he is such a darling...

hey!!!

we just got back from malacca... we as in baba, boyfriend and paul(baba's cousin)...

it was just a one day trip just to see grannie...
ate so much as usual...grannie's cooking is awesome and there is always food around...

the boys decided to head to pure bar but me and the girls went for a movie...
KAMI the movie!!! it was a really nice movie though... but how we got to the cinema was funny! boyfriend and aunty lucy rush us to dataran for the 11.40pm movie... when we arrived was already 11.45pm... we rush and didnt want to wait for the lift so we decided to run up the stairs... didnt know how many flights of stairs but i ran up the stairs... tiring man!!! i felt like my legs wannna cabut off my body! but it was worth it! exercised and a good movie!!! hehehe...

...... sleepy now!!!

i have been wanting to update my blog but im just plain lazy to think of what to write now a days... since im still bumming around... did a lil of work though...

well lets start from yesterday though....

it was my late father's birthday yesterday...

dear daddy,
happy birthday daddy...
i know you're much more happy up in heaven and you can see me down from there...
may you rest in peace...
i love you daddy...
i miss you so much...
wish you were there in person to see my graduate...
hope i made you proud...
longing for your hugs and kisses...

love your baby girl,
deena.

and it was the boyfriend's mum's birthday too... we went for dinner and as usual ate a lot...

3. i put on 3kg!!!!! im officially fat now!!! *sigh* need to loose weight now!!! shit!!! means no more eating at odd hours!

4. my mummy is in bali now... went for a holiday... she left on monday and e.t.a to arrive in kl is at 5pm today... cant wait to see what she has bought for me...

5. i need to renew my passport as it is going to expired in november...

6. doing some freelance to keep myself occupied...

7. bumming around most of the time... still looking for a job... been for interviews but... im still keeping my options open...

8. baba, gerard and jared leaving for penang this weekend for their cousin's wedding... *congratualations*

9. helping around to clean boyfriends room...

10. before mum left for bali... we had sarawak laksa weekend... mum cooked sarawak laksa...

11. studio pictures are ready!! it look so nice... :)

12. saving money!! *sigh* means less shopping!!! :(

there is so many things... but i just cant seem to remember... im such a forgetful though...

oh-ya...

wanna wish all the muslims..... selamat hari raya yah!!! if you guys balik kampung, make sure drive safely yah!!!!

it is the time where im bumming around and looking for a new job!

*wish me luck*

sorry havent been updating as.......

1. im not well...
2. im too lazy...
3. i was in malacca over the weekends... *last week end*
4. im doing a little of freelance work...
5. and ive been sleeping...

*to be continued...

Don't know why... But I can't wait for the movie to be out... hehehe... As it will be out one day after the day I turn 22!! ahahaha... I'm still a child deep down in my heart!... :)

What a weekend... there were ups and downs...

Mum just got back from Singapore... She was there for about a week...

Went to ikea to get myself a table for my pc.. then... the boyfriend lost his phone... sigh... i know he is upset... *but cheer up k... we'll get a new phone... hehehe... when money comes... ahhahaa*

currently its my last week of work here...
can't wait though.. wanna work some where else with a different environment... :)
wish me luck in finding a new job... hehehe...

boyfriend's results are out... gladly he PASS all... *big relief*
now boyfriend is back to class... hehehe... hopefully this semester he'll go for class... but i'll still have to push him to do so... i hope that he wont get barred!! hahaha.. he is famous of that though... hahaha...

recently i'm eating like a pig... damn... got to stop though... getting fatter day by day... shit!!!

merdeka is around the corner...
might spend merdeka in Malacca though... *not confirm* it all depends on the boyfriend...

ok la... back to work... later boss walk around me die!!! :P

I was browsing through the net and i found something really funny...
Will like to share it with you...

How to stay awake at the office...

We've all had those days at the office. Those long days when no matter how much work we have stacked on our desks or how hard we try to focus, we can't keep our eyes open. On those days, we know we're not going to get much done, so we might as well have some fun.

There are a few tricks I've learned over the years that have helped me stay awake and appear busy at the same time.

One note: I only recommend these techniques if your boss has a sense of humor.

The Paper Clip Chain
Everyone who works in an office has made a paper clip chain. It keeps our hands busy while our minds wander. But the key here isn't the chain itself. It's what you do with it.

You could fashion jewelry out of it-necklaces and bracelets, maybe even a pair of earrings-but then it would be obvious to your boss and coworkers that you aren't actually working.

Instead, hide the paper clips under a piece of paper while you hook them together. Make the chain as long as you can. When the person in the next cubicle gets up to go to the bathroom, replace all of his paper clips with the chain you just made. Then all you have to do is wait until he tries to grab one.

The Taped Drawers
If you've already done the paper clip trick, you might want to try this one out on a different coworker. As soon as someone leaves a cubicle unattended, make sure no one is looking, then make a beeline for the desk. Choose a desk drawer and place three pieces of transparent tape around the edges of it. Be careful not to use long pieces of tape. Otherwise, they'll be seen. When your coworker returns, watch as she tries to figure out how her drawer got jammed.

The Tech Team
When you get tired of messing with individual coworkers, you can waste at least a couple hours bugging the tech team. Make a list of everything that's wrong with your computer, then call the tech department and read the list to them. Act like it's the most important thing they could do all day. When one of them stops by to check out the situation, ask how to hook up the DSL on your home computer.

This works especially well if you have a friend in the tech department who will play along.

The Shredder
If your boss frowns on practical jokes and you're still having a hard time focusing, you could always run the shredding machine. Grab everything you have that can be shredded, then stop at everyone else's desks and ask if they have anything that needs to go. After you've gathered everything you can, feed all the papers into the shredder. Take your time. The longer you move around, the more alert you will become.

It's not a good idea to engage in these activities every day. You won't get any work done if you do and your coworkers will quickly get tired of you. However, they are good for a little boost once in a while. And remember, none of these tips will help your productivity, but at least you'll look busy.

If nothing else works, you could always take a nap in the bathroom.

Just got back from Penang...

Went to Penang for the weekend with the family...

For this...
Jason, I'm sorry I couldn't make it to your birthday party... I'm really really sorry...

Aunty Bella, uncle George and Krystle has left for Singapore already... once again the house is filled up with silence... mum will be in Singapore for one week too spending some more time with aunty bella before she returns to australia... *sigh* wish i could go too...

I'm going to miss aunty bella and krystle... thank you so much for coming for my graduation...
Really appreciate it... love you both...

weekend has gone... back to work... *sigh*

Things I have to do own my own from now on...

1. Control my temper
2. Put away my anger feelings
3. Be cheerful
4. Respect one another
5. Not to argue on small little things
6. Be mature enough to deal with problems
7. Learn to face reality
8. Turn my heart into an iron
9. Be tough
10. Be a grown up
11. Keep quiet minus the loudness
13. Minimize the moodiness
14. Work harder
15. Don't be lazy
16. Get a new job!
17. Learn not to depend on others
18. Learn to appreciate others
19. Learn the roads around more
20. Be INDEPENDENT!
21. Stand on my own feet!
22. Attend anger management class (Anyone knows anyway to do this?)
23. Keep feelings inside more often

my graduation day... 11th August 2008

Convocation is over... hehehe...

Pictures have not been uploaded yet... soon soon soon... patients... but the rehearsal pictures are already been uploaded... i wish i had my own camera.. then can take more pictures of myself... sadly i didn't take much with my friends yesterday as i had my family around... and my uncle had to rush back to singapore... thank you uncle richard and aunty yee mei for coming for my convocation day... thank you so much... aunty bella, uncle geogre and krsytle... thank you for coming all the way from australia.... thank you so much... i'm so happy that i finally graduated!!!

hehehe... bare in mind this was only the rehearsal!! hahaha...

Today... I went for the rehearsal of convocation... Instead of paying attention we were talking all the way... normal la... when you dah lama tak jumpa your friends... was so happy to see all of them though... but one thing... we had to queue so long!!! the line was horrible!!!!!!!!

but I've got my robe... and my invitation card... and my card has been verified... yay!!!!!!!!! While trying out our robes we ended up taking pictures together as though we have already graduated by receiving our scrolls... hahaha... i hope pictures will be uploaded soon... hehehe...

couldn't have lunch with the rest as i have to rush back to work... *sniff sniff*

counting the days till monday!!!
weeeeeeeeee.... can't believe it.... after four years of studying...
*in my heart, i'm a little scared to walk up to receive my scroll... scared i might trip and fall infront of hundreds of student and everybody...*
wish me luck.. hehehe...

sunday will be the family dinner of my graduation dinner... aunty bella and uncle richard is coming... yay!! can't wait to see aunty bella... it's been quite a while since i last saw her...

on friday, dila is getting married.. im soooo happy for her though...
well dila... congratulation...!!!

here is a little someting for you dila....

Adilah Ahmad Ghazi, my best friend since form 3. She was an enemy, a friend, and a shoulder. Sometimes we would fight; we would have little arguments but in the end it is always ends up with a big hugs. She is always there to hear me out and help me in many ways when I was down. When I first know that she was going to get married, I felt sad a little that she would be busy with her new husband and have no time for me. Then I realize that no matter what or who she is with that she will always be my friend and my best friend but deep down I was so happy for her that she has finally found the love of her life.

Back during school days, the three of us would discuss on how our wedding will be like and who will get married first. As usual out of the three of us I was the eldest, so they would argue and say that I would get married first. I would laugh until I cannot stop laughing and denying it. I always say that she would get married first. And now it’s true right Izzah? That was not the only thing we discuss during our free period but also the dates were going to get married. For me I never thought about the dates of when I would get married but only when I’m financially stabilized. For as Dila, she would write down her dates on when she will finish studying and also the dates that would be the same year for instance 20. 10. 2010. Hehehe. Well Dila. Your dream has finally come through where you got married yesterday, 08.08.2008. Just few days earlier. Hehehe…

Dila, Dolly and Dil are what we call her during our school days until today. Besides that she was the girl who helps me out in my Accounts subject back in the school days. She sits besides me for the pass last 2 years in high school, and we pretty much share a lot of things including thoughts on shopping stuff, girls stuff and also gossip about boys. I miss those days though Dil. I hope after this, we would still get a chance to do some catching up on all those. ‘Don’t worry Yassier, were not going to gossip about you… hehehe…’ She used to be the girl who carries loads of tissue paper in her school bag as she has sinus problems, so I had no worries if I didn’t bring a packet of tissue paper to school.

When the first time, she meet Yassier, she actually type out every single message from him, and remember every moment and from that moment, I realize that she is in love with him. Well, Dila… I’m really happy that you’re finally found the love of your life. Enjoy and cherish every moment together as you would not know when it will be the last. To Yassier, Dila loves you a lot and do take good care of her. Next will be children running around. I can’t wait though. Can I pamper your kids? Hehehe…

Anyway I think I shall stop. There is so much to say but it might take the whole night long. Dil, you’re a great friend and a best friend to me, I am sure that you’ll be a great wife to Yassier. May God bless the both of you with happiness and many children. Love you Girl.

.... i love you

i can't seem to get myself right this time...
i made someone angry...
i made someone sad...

i'm sorry...
i'm sorry i'm being difficult...
i'm sorry for being moody...
i'm sorry for my mood swings...
i'm sorry for everything that i ever did wrong...

just one thing...
don't push me away...

*sigh*

the weekend where i spend so much!!!

went for PC fair and bought myself another external hdd~ *finally*
perm my hair on Sunday!!! *pictures will be upload soon* and also redo my highlight~ i love my hair!!!!! hehehe...

boyfriend was sick on friday!! he was down with high fever...
the next day baba and i brought him to the doctor...
he got jap in the hip! hahaha..
then later at night.. we went for pc fair then off to maison!! hahaha..
sick also the child want to go for baba's event~!

the deco was awesome! better than the one in coco banana... hahaha...
there was a flash screen where u can press the buttons and all the informations appears...
as normal i was amuse with it and kept on pressing it...
baba was like wait la for it to finish and ask me to read... hahaha.. and i kept saying why so slow and taking so long for me to press another button... hahaha..
we didn't stay long though... coz sick boy needs his rest and also study!! his finals is today!!
*grins*

boyfriend,

i pray that you are able to solve all the questions for your finals.
YOU CAN DO IT and you will pass with flying colours! hehehe...

Amen...

yesterday night was supposED to be an early night out...
i was tired and also down with a flu...
but the cold that i had couldn't stop me from seeing pussycat dolls live @ coco banana...
even for only 15 minutes i enjoyed it very much...
seeing them for real for the first time...
i regretted not going for their concert as that time i was having my assignments pack up on my schedule...

besides that it was a joint event between Chivas and Kent... so it was like free flow through out the whole night... bloody drunkards... i myself drank quite a lot... *drunkard*
Baba was handling the event... I love the Kent designs which was black!! Oh ya not forgetting the cigarette boxes of Kent are luminous... It shines under the light... LAWA!!! hehehe...
Before the event even started, Chivas people were finding faults with Baba and his Gang! hahaha.. Baba was very angry!!! Poor him!!! Look so tired and stress!!! Chivas people so greedy until wants two rows of table which is right infront... STINGY brats! hahaha... Baba... next time decorate more kay!! don't care about anyone.. hehehe... Make it like your style!!
But the Chivas people decorate the area with balloons... I find the balloons so cliche...

sadly i had to get up for work today... i wish i could still laze on the bed like last time when i was in university...

there are disadvantage and advantages when we start work...

advantages
1. earn our own money...
2. shopping without burdening our parents...
3. no more class to attend...
4. no more crazy assignments...
5. our work our gain!!
6. experience!!!
7. you can skip class and ask people to sign...

disadvantages
1. have to wake up everyday to head to work...
2. cannot lay in bed...
3. no more easy life as in taking attendance and going back to hostel to sleep...
4. people judge you easily on your work to see whether you're good enough for the company...*hahaha*
5. you can't just run away!!! you have to take leave or MC... no running!


i think that's all i can think right now...
brain not working...and still sleeping...
and I'm currently at work and the boyfriend is fast asleep!!!

Baba... Thank you yah!!! hahahahaha...

went for the movie premier yesterday...

overall...
i say the movie was ok...
boleh la!~
have a go and watch it...

Before I even knew it, it's already te end of July... Tomorrow will be August already. Time flies so fast and it's going to be the end of the year in a flash.

Back from Langkawi and now back to work.
Holiday in Langkawi was awesome. I had a great time and i'm pretty sure the rest did too. Drinking water was extremly expensive there as the beer and alcohol was way cheaper.

We left for Kuala Perlis at about 12am on Thursday and arrived safelty at about 6am the next day. The ride was long and cold as I gave my jacket and stockings to Kristen on the bus. As soon as we reach Kuala Perlis, Astrid queued up to buy ferry tickets. It was a long queue and we couldn't get the first ferry in. We manage to catch the 8am ferry. The ferry ride wasn't exciting as it was VERY noisy. The noise of the engine was even louder than the people chit chatting in the ferry. I slept most of the time on the ferry. *me the PIG*

We were all excited to be in Langkawi and as soon as we touch the grounds in Langkawi, we started scouting for alcohol prices. *drunkards we are* :P
We had lunch at some city with not many people. It was very quiet. Yeah VERY! Unlike in KL it's full of people and cars. There in Langkawi was nothing. You barely even see loads of big group of people walking pass by.

We didn't get the van as they didn't have any so we decided to rent three cars and as usual the drivers were Hamish, the boyfriend and Fiona. The cars condition were bad enough as it is a rented car. Our car had so much problem as one of it is the streling wheel. It's like broken into half. The boyfriend was hoping that it doesn't actually break while he is driving. Hehehehe...

We wasted our time as we could only checked in to our resort (Malibest Resort) at 2pm. So we delay ourself. Everything is very slow around there. We walked around the beach. Its pretty. We sat by the beach while waiting for the rooms. The chalet was ok. Just nice la. Can't say it's a 5 star but for me as long there is proper place and it's pretty clean it's fine with me. Kristen and me decided to go for a swim but in the end it rain for a bit. So the boys decided to start drinking first. We followed to while chilling. Next thing you know that most of them went to take a nap first but not David, Kevin, James, Fabian, Me, Kristen, Steph and Zoey. We decided to continue drinking on the beach while waiting for the right time to go in.

The waves were huge!!! It practically will drag you together with it. I really had fun swimming and jumping around in the water. Kevin as usual was always trying to fight the waves with his super powers and David went swimming while he is half drunk.

The first night, we went for dinner along Pulau Cenang. We had western food. Was not really my time but no point in complaining as I will just go with the flow. After dinner we head back to the resort and we started drinking. I myself had 4 shots of tequila. Hehehehe... It was awesome. After that I watched the others as I am pretty satisfied with what I had and also I was freaking tired! David was gone! Fabian was gone too later. Next was Hamish... Kristen and Kevin carried on drinking until in the morning and they went for an early morning swim in the sea. The best thing was, Kevin went swimming together with his wallet and his phone. Yes his phone.. hahaha... The phone is GONE now. hahaha... According to Aaron, they look like a crazy couple jumping around trying to catch for the wallet in the water. Kevin say he thought it was a talapia fish swimming around them until he saw his picture in it then he realize that his phone was also in his pocket. I wanted to go to the Underwater World but sadly couldn't cause the boyfriend said it was under some kind of renovation but later on the last day I found out it wasn't but there was not much time left. *sigh*

Astrid and I woke up first and started waking the drunkards up. Next thing I know that I was in Kristen's room with David, James, the boyfriend drinking already. Kevin and Kristen was still drunk from the alcohol and also tired after the early morning swim.

Second day, we didn't do much as it was raining during the day and most of us went back to sleep until 4pm. That was the only time the rain stop. As soon as the rain stop we went straight to the beach and continue drinking. We took pictures and sadly I don't have a camera. We went swimming again! Hahaha... This time Astrid went too. She was a lil scared to go in but I held her hand and slowly walk her in. After the evening swim, we went down to town to have dinner. Seafood indeed! hehehe... Guess how much was our bill.... it was RM 65!!!!!! and we had prawns, fish, and sotong!!! damn cheap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After dinner, we continued drinking. yeah DRINK! ahahaha... this time, it was on the beach! but not many got drunk! This time was JAMES! It was funny though... I didn't sleep though... Steph, Zoey and ME sat on the beach with James trying to sober the drunkard boy up until 7.30am. The next thing I know is I saw two monkeys running towards us and the results was Kevin and Kristen... I followed them into the sea this time. It was freaking cold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kevin was doing some kungfu stunts in the water to fight the waves... I only swam for a while only cause couldn't stand the cold. After the swim I went back into my room and sleep!! Hehehe...

Woke up at about 12pm, change room so we could extend it. I swear mybody was aching like a mad cow!!! serious!! damn painful!! After sorting out the rooms, we went for lunch along the roads. Then off to the duty free to shop! Yeah it was the only time left before we leave at night. After shopping, we went back into the sea for the last swim. hehehe... So sad we had to go back!

After the swim, we later found out that our flight was delayed till 12am.. For a minute my heart was like YAY! We didn't have to rush. But in the end we had to rush too as we were all taking our own sweet time to do everything. Dinner was rushing too. Most of them had to pack their food and then eat at the airport.

In the plane, when Kristen and I saw KL, I said 'Welcome back to the expensive city!' *sigh*

So that was our holiday!

*mind my english though*
*sleepy head typing it*

currently in training session...
im dead bored...
but in my mind is already view of langkawi...
leaving at 11.45pm tonight...
feeling so excited...
omg~ finally a holiday with my friends...
yay!!!
let's go... can't wait...
a weekend to enjoy...

*stomach making sounds now....*
hungryyyyyyyyyyyyy...
wish i could have a bun or something to eat to fill my poor tummy....

tick tock tick tock... faster finish training...
i think i have only 2 more hours till i'm done... can't wait... weeeeee...

The weekend has gone again. It sounds so sad when I put it that way but I had a long weekend as I was on Medical Leave from Thursday. My migraine attacks my head since Wednesday night.

The weekend was known as the monopoly night at Wynton’s house. Before the monopoly game started, we played scrabble. Wynton came up with his own words as usual but in the end I won and the boyfriend a.k.a mr English didn’t win first but second place. Then the monopoly started with Wynton, Gerard, boyfriend and me. The first night when we played it we simply apply any rules and Wynton was draining all our money. First night the boyfriend went bankrupt. Then me and then Gerard.

The second night we played in Gerard’s house and yet again it was a good game and we didn’t cheat with our own rules. Wynton won again with less property. Fabian went bankrupt again and I conquer all his property. *giggles* Poor boyfriend.

In the end we came to a conclusion that playing monopoly can tensed each other up and also it is a stressful game. I don’t think will be playing monopoly anytime soon though. I guess it’s the boyfriend’s turn to buy a new board game.

And last but not least Gerard, the boyfriend and me went for a movie last night. We ended up watching Hell Boy II. I didn't really like the movie though. *Sigh*

Now it's back to work though.

Life as University students was always fondly remembered as one of the best times in a person's life...
No doubt, you'll feel the same way too...

A chapter of your life is ending…
it's time to say goodbye to classmates, lecturers, classes and labs...
exams, quizzes, burning the midnight oil mugging for exams, group projects…you name it..
being broke before the next allowance...
being carefree students, roaming around the faculty hallways...
having fun on campus...

11 August 2008... I'll be getting my scroll and wearing my 'square hat'....

To all my friends....
I wish you all the best in your life....
Thank you for the four years of fun and laughter through out my University life...
I'm going to miss each and everyone of you...
Do keep in touch with each other...
Will never know what will happen to each other... Maybe one will get married or another... hehehe...
Thank you again...
Love you all...

the hair cut day...


wynton's turn...



gerard's turn...



and the out come of the both of them...