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this should stop right now.

sorry.

I feel that i'm loosing everything that matters to me. We would just fight even of simple little things. I'll just feel upset but things get worst every minute. I get upset with little and little of things at this moment. Is it because it's the 'pms' month??? i don't really know what is going on with me. We would get mad at each other very fast and the words that we use against each other are just so hurtful to take. I still remember the time where we say that we hate each other so much. I regret it every single day and trying to be a better person at the same time work things out but I don't see it improving at the moment. I feel that I am not important and there is no conversation between one another.

I really miss us. Sorry i'm not good enough for you.

november to january~

surprise?hehehe.. im back.. i thought i have forgotten my username and password but no...its still fresh in my mind..

well i would say bye bye to 2007.. i know im a lil late for that but as you have seen i havent been blogging for ages...

i am currently going into my final semester... holidays are just over and now is my final semester.. fwehhhhhhhhh... i pass my second semester.. so stress.. i just want to get through this and start working and get my own money to spend... heehhehe.. so i would at least put off the burden of my mum...

its already almost the end of january of the year 2008 and lots have happened!!!

i think im gonna loose someone that who really meant to me... i feel soooooo sad and i think that we will not ever be the same.. i wish that it didnt happen just 10 minutes ago... im looking forward to head back to campus but now its all shattered! hoping that holidays will continue actually... sigh.. i dont know what to do anymore right this moment.. it has been really hard for me... things are getting worst and im being the worse and a useless friend..

hoping and praying at this moment trying not to cry in front of my mother. sigh! be patient deena! you'll be strong *hopefully* and you dont need it right now... just miss everything.. =(