aku sayang padamu....

"Aku sayang padamu...
Aku ingin dirimu...
Selalu bersamaku...
Aku sayang padamu..."

feeling sucky...

im just soo dissapointed with things around me...
today the whole day i felt like a sharp big nail has just stab me right through my heart!!!
im really upset with sooo many things...
i just feel like i dont belong around here...

f**k la...

betandak dang torun...

it was great performing... was nervous though... by da way betandak dang torun is a bidayuh language... in malay its "menari dalam hutan"

more pictures will be uploaded soon..=)now very tired... need sleep now...

hungry!

hungry~~~~~~~~

where is everyone???? =(

my stomach needs to be fill up with food....

@$#$%&^$%&%^*^*(#

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
my head is killing me.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my migraine is back.... after sooo long....f**k laaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

i need to get the brochures and the posters done by tonite... its already at the printing shop... need to practice... evaluation is tonite for me n my group... arghhhhhhhhhhh.... my head really need a rest!!!!

not in the mood~

do have faith in me???

Read this carefully and i wonder whether do you have faith in me.... i hope you do...

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Let my love throw a spark
Have a little faith in me

And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try baby and
Have a little faith, faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here baby, from a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you, you will see
I will catch your, I will catch your fall just
Have a little faith, faith in me

I've been loving you for such a long, long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend
Cos the rest is the end
All you gotta do is have a little faith

I will hold you up, I will hold you up and
Your love gives me strength enough to
Have a little faith in me
Oh faith, darlin'

Have a little faith in me
Oh, faith

*yawn*

its 4.22 in the morning... i have not sleep yet.. but i think ill surrender myself... i cannot think anymore... i feel like a numb person without any single feelings in me... i really need a holiday... a long one if thats possible... but here in MMU the longest holidays are only 3 weeks long... it is not enough for me... i need my beauty sleep... i really look like a panda now... with black eye bags...

submission for all assignments are all next week... *uwaaaaaaaaaa*
than its finals for me...
but now every night im having dance practice for my performance on thursday... first time im ever performing a traditional dance...

i wanna go out... i wanna shop... i wanna watch movie... i wanna sleep all day long... i wanna be a bum and lie in bed the whole day...
hehehe...

okok i shall stop complaining and wishing...
just get the work done and i can have all that... but its impossible now!!!!!

i miss my B sooo much... i havent been talking to him lately... just a short call to ask him how is he... and thats it...

okok... better get back to my work... uwaaaaaaaaaaa....
WORK WORK WORK WORK.....
the end....

zzZZZZzzzzzZZZzz ?

I dont have time for that.... *sigh*
*yawn*

finish consulting with idea... next move on to my final work... argh... submission next week... die...!!!!!!!!!
i already jumpa my advisor.. so thats settled.. she wants me to work on my grades!!! *sigh*

later got class at 2pm... im gonna sleep... than later at 4pm got another consultation... that die again.. i havent come out with anything.. i might just not go...

I WAN SLEEEEEEEPPPPP...
I need SLEEEEEEPpPPP...
I have panda eyes now... *sigh*

national dance performance...

come come... come and watch some girls shake!! hahaha....
its this thursday... at 8pm.... come yah~

what can i say?

exhausted.

just this one word!

<3

"I wanted someone like you
Someone that I could hold onto
And give my love
Until the end of time..."

my destiny...

think bout this... issit true?? why dont you tell me...

"Baby, you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be
My destiny...."

blueks...

morning...
yeay...
mum is coming...
hurray...
i miss my mommy...
im hungry...
im officially broke...
bought art stuff yesterday...
uwaaaaaaaaaaa...

<3 is in the air...

i miss you...

<3

Pernahkah kau menguntai hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua di sini surga kita

i wanna watch the movie!!!! heart..<3

not in the mood~

good morning~
im currently not in the mood to think, to do anything, and also to talk to anyone... im sorry peeps if today im extra quiet.. *sigh*

well mum send me an email... its kinda cheered me a lil like 5% of my mood... thanks mummy.. i love you...

p/s:THIS IS ONE OF THE NICEST AND MOST BEAUTIFUL USES OF THE ALPHABET THAT I HAVE EVER SEEN. I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT AS MUCH AS I DID. HAVE A GOOD DAY!

Although things are not perfect...
Because of trials and pain...
Continue in thanksgiving...
Do not begin to blame...
Even when the times are hard...
Fierce winds are bound to blow...
God is forever able...
Hold on to what you know...
Imagine life without His love...
Joy would cease to be...
Keep thanking Him for all the things...
Love imparts to thee...
Move out of "camp complaining"...
No weapon that is known...
On earth can yield the power...
Praise can do alone...
Quit looking at the future...
Redeem the time at hand...
Start everyday with worship...
To "thank" is a command...
Until we see Him coming...
Victorious in the sky...
We'll run the race with gratitude...
Xalting God most high...
Yes, there'll be good times & yes some will be bad, but...
Zion waits in glory...where no one is ever sad!

The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.
The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything.
Love and peace be with you forever, Amen.

p/s: GOD LOVES YOU...PASS THE WORD ON TO MORE FRIENDS...

lazy me!

im sooooo bloooodyyyyy lazy to do work!!!!!
damn it...
*yawn*

growling...

im hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to eat....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i dun wan too...
ehehe...

things i hv to get it done...
1. mi work....!!
2. oa work....!!
3. copywriting work....!!
4. mpd work...!!
5. practice for national dance...!!

damn it...
got soooo many to do...
all the lecturers wants to see progress in work next week.... uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

tired and sleepy....
headache and stomach making sooo much of noise....

ok la...
bwekkks....
just waiting for the time to fly to 5pm so i can go back to my room......

i miss my B...*sigh* havent been talking to him lately... been really busy will stuff!! sorry B... hope youll forgive me... love ya...

i love you...

Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
take away all my sadness
ease my troubles that's what you do

For the morning sun in all it's glory
greets the day with hope and comfort too
You fill my life with laughter
and somehow you make it better
ease my troubles that's what you do
There's a love that's divine
and it's yours and it's mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
we should give thanks and pray
to the one, to the one

There's a love that's divine
and it's yours and it's mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
we should give thanks and pray
to the one, to the one

back~

mi web assignment has already been submited... say bye bye to it... havent had enough of sleep this pass few days... havent got the chance to rest new assignments came in now... damn it... i think i need a holiday... i hv panda eyes already.. anyway tomorrow my moral group is going to PAWS... we have to do a charity thingy for our assignment...

well as all of you can see that someone has been posting msges on my shout out coloumn... i shall not say anything anymore before things goes worst... it is already bad enough... to who ever is doing this... dont you ever think of what people feel?? what do you get from all this?? popularity?? attention?? what do you want?? thank you for saying all those words... ill keep that in mind... no point of arguing or posting up things like that... you just want to give me a bad name... that is what you all do only... nothing better to do...

the end~

stressss!!!!

its like freaking 4.18am... and im still starring at my monitor screen doing my FLASH assignment... its a fully website thingy... now flash software is giving me problem... uwaaaaa..... crit session is on wednesday!!!! die!!!! die!!!! die!!!!

*yawn*
im sleeepy...

<3

in love..
so much in love...
hehehe...
weeee....

pain pain pain

gastric pain....!!!! uwaaaaaa!!!!!

(",)

you made my day.

This I Swear~

by Nick Lachey

You're there by my side
Everywhere
I know that you will not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need, believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
But when I say I love you darlin' that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you, till forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand, and hold on tight
And we'll get there
And this I swear

I'm wonderin' how
I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Wherever I go
The one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you darlin' that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you, till forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand, and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get free
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down, my love

And I will love you, until forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand, and hold on tight
We'll get there

And I will love you, until forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand, and hold on tight
And we'll get there, ooh we'll get there
This I swear

tired~

back for the weekend...hmmm...just got back from kl... someone belanja me dinner... hehehe... i ate banana choc... yummy~ thank you soo much... was raining like cats and dogs... i got wet... and was really cold...

sooo much to do in sooo little time... im really worn out... i mean my energy are gone entirely... i think my anemic is taking effect now on me... i get really really really tired in just a split second... hmmmm....

its our 8th month anniversary today... and my B is having exam right now at this moment... wish him all the best and good luck... im sure he can do it... GO B... i support u from the back... hehehe...

im currently waiting for nellie girl and kris to come ere... cant on the astro... coz its still raining like cats and dogs soooo i decided to blog instead while waiting for the washing machine to finish spinning dry the cloths...

mum is back in kuching... sigh... wish I could follow... I'm starting to miss my homeland already... i MISS my late grandma and my late daddy~ i MISS them dearly...
LOVE them both very much... Hope they are happy in heaven and resting in peace beside our heavenly FATHER~ <3

okay i shall stop now...
washing machine has stop...=) its calling me now!! hehehe...

welcome back deena~

Exhausted~
Just got back from MI field trip. We went to Sungai Congkak. Its was a 3 day 2 night camping trip.

1st day~
arrived there about 2 something in the afternoon.
as soon as we reach there we were allowed to walk around the area.
got into groups, and also our tent.
This is my first time staying in a tent~
CAn you imagine... Sleeping on the ground with out a matteress but only a sleeping bag~ uwaaaaa... i had backache, shoulder ache and also neck ache... 3 in 1..=(
First activity was Obstacle Course. Its a simpler version of people going for NS(NAtional Service). Where we had to run and climb things. My fave top got torn while doing this course. After that we were allowed to do our own thing till dinner was serve. Food was ok at first. Than later at night at about 11pm, we went for night jungle trekking. IN THE DARK!!! It was really freaky and I am afraid of the dark!!! We had to climb up and down the hill and all. Tired though~ I was sweating like a mad cow.

2nd day

Woke up...Had breakfast... Breakfast was tasteless~ *yuck*
ANd was time for our next activity which was Jungle trekking again!!!! but this time we will do it in the day~ hehehe... we learn about leaves in the jungle... and also how to built shelter... and also cook in bamboo... cooked egg and maggie... we ate our maggie with bread... can anyone imagine how it will taste like??? yucky?? or yummy??? actually its yummy though... hahaha.... the river water was cold...nice to take a dip though...
hehehe... after having lunch... we had river trekking... this was fun though...
hehehe... the current was strong though...so i had to be careful... we bath in the river... hehehe...the water was very cold!!! soo nice to bath in there... didnt want to come up though...
hahaha...

at night we had performance nite...


3rd day


We were allowed to do what we want to do... I went and took more pictures of the place... My assignment now is to promote the place by doing a flash website... well...that was it though... nothing much... left sungai congkak at bout 2.45pm... den came back home... and not back in cyber...
sigh~

still feeling exhausted though...

okay la..i better get some rest...
got the whole day tomolo~
bbye~

SRC General Meeting~

back to square one~

say bye bye to the holidays and say hello to all the assignments....

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

my money like running away only...
printing and buying all the stuff....=((
im broke for the month~
cannot go shopping...somemore on sale...
i wannna cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im bored of my closet edi!!!!
how now???

tired~

TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hopefully everything will be over and done with...hopefully everyone would forgive each other... God answered my prayers...i'm quite happy with the results... thank God it was negative... i hope that there will be no more problem between each other anymore... i think mum is also fed up with everything.. i'm praying so hard that mum will be strong enough and also would forgive him~

Thank you Jesus.

Went out with mum and got back around 3am. Started doing my work by finalizing my designs until 5am. I woke up with a terrible headache.. I ha dto force myself up. Went printing and it took 2 hours to finish. WAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... if natalie wasnt there i think i would die though. She actually helped me coz my brains werent working since i got up.. sad hor.. until now.. im at nat's place now.. enjoying my last bits of my sooooo call holiday.

okay la..
i think i shall stop crapping here... i wanna go take my shower now...its hot!!!! HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT~

hehehe...
ok...nite nite..
mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

lastly.....
I LOVE MY B!!!!!!!*mwah*

work?

just waiting for approval on my work and get it printed as soon as possible...
next is doing the modelling on 3dMax.. this is a 3d software where we got to make it look real..
a lot of work rite...sigh~

bored~

Tonite I have to attend launching dinner for COnvofest~
Now i'm in campus all alone..
I'm bored~
What should I do??
I can die of boredom here...
uwaaaaa~

had enough!

Cant it just go!!!!
I'm getting really pist off now!!!
Can't she stop doing this to us???
Why must it happen to us now!!!!!
wtf~!!!

GO AWAY BITCH!!!

shoo~

I want the pain to go away.
I dont want to feel this way.
Please take it away!

messed up!!!!!

Dear diary,
When everything is going so well, something is sure to pop out to destroy the happiness of my loved one. I wonder why everything can’t go smoothly. I know why we can’t have what we want every time but this is totally different. Everyday all I hear is screams and shouting and words I’m not suppose to hear. It hurts me when all this happen. The tears running down from the eyes are all I could see.

Bags are packed and everything is gone. All I could hear is cries of anger and sadness in her. Now I’m being frustrated that my phone rings not for me but for her. People looking for her up and down through me and all she could do are ignoring the phone call on my mobile phone. What am I suppose to say to all of them? Should I lie? Why bother teaching me to be a good person if you want me to lie to others? Why do I have to be the middle person? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

I hate to be in this place now. My door that connects to the outside is locked. I’m shutting myself from everyone like how she does it to other people. It’s like prison here. I feel like going out somewhere to ease my mind but where?????????? There is no where I can go now and also with who I don’t know. I wish that I could just fly out of the window now. Fly to where I want to be now. *sigh*

Do you think I need to be patient? Don’t tell me to be patient. I had enough of this actually. I’m always being the middle person. Go away now! I just need to be alone. I don’t want to be involved with everything that is going on now!

BYE~

adeh~

pain pain pain pain pain....
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
period cramps...
now i know why was i always moody...
:D

yay~

I pass my interview!!!!

YAY~

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...~

PMS~

I'm having my PMS!!!!!!!!!! I'm moody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK laaaaaaaaaaaa..

p/s: I just saw two crows fucking each other while walking back from class back to my hostel block.......... First time actually see-ing birds having sex...wakakaka...=)

speechless...

What shall I say about this word.. To me i'm currently speechless with words!

It's been quite sometime since I last blog a real thing... All I could say was few words and later bye... Such a boring life though...

I don't know what is up with me this few days... Is the evil or the angel spirit over me? I myself wonder... I can be really mean at times and good like wise... Am I good or bad? Hmmm.... I havent been myself this pass few weeks... I dont know what is bothering me... I wish I knew what is going on with me? Am I about to transform into an animal?? *sigh* Why do I have to feel like this...? Can anyone tell me why??? ahaha.... I doubt anyone can tell me...

Thats is one thing... The other is :
They are times when I actually felt like i'm loosing my friends. Sad hor?? Sometimes I feel left out among them... I don't know what they are talking about... You know the OUTCAST~ Thats what normally people call them... I always feel like i'm the last to know about things... I dont mind not being the attention of others cause I DONT WANT TOOOO.... but I don't like to be left out... like the last resort...

assignments??? current ones...
1. I have to come up with a new design for my packaging of a product... Got to consult again tomorrow for better ideas...
2. I have to create a flash banner about promoting cars...
3. Now my journal entries... Are not been completed cause my file is always not with me... Planning to do it during the holidays...

others:
1. Design t-shirt for swim club... Love doing this though...
2. National dance tags and posters...
3. SLeep~

hahaha... The tired one is the most important though..
hahaaha.... I'm such a pig though...*oink oink*

Yesterday I had butterflies in my stomach... Went for interview... Well no need to know for what though... Will let u know later la...

And lastly...Its already week 7... Next week is mid-term break...YAY *hurray*
Cant wait...
I already though that today is Thursday~ That bad right? hehehe... okay la...
I shall stop feeling sooooooo misery~

Laterz~

blood drive donation..

hey...

Once again I can't donate blood... My hemoglobin level is still low... *sigh* soooo sad... My fourth attempt to donate... I think I won't be ale to donate blood forever... *sigh*

Anyway...one week more and were on midterm break...

Nothing much has been happening that I should write in here though...

Assignments and more assignments...

This upcoming week are most likely going to be consultation week with the lecturers... hehehhee...

Currently down with a headache.. I think i'm coming down with a fever...

Later la....
tired~

7th Month Anniversary~

It's been quite sometime since I last blog... SORRY~ Been really busy and the connection in campus is really slow...

WELL..... Today is our anniversary~ WEEEEE~

Dear B,

See how time flies soooo fast... It's our anniversary...

Happy Anniversary B...

Thank you for everything...

My life could not be this happy without you...

'I LOVE YOU'

Thank you for being very understanding towards me...

*mwah*

*hugs*

Love always,

your baby...

blueks~

CMC ice breaking was a bomb~ I love this picture... Azie shaaaayang and mE... =)

sorry havent been updating my blog due to numbers of meeting in a week and assignments...

sorry~ laterz... im off to bed now and class is at 9.30 am...

*sigh*
* yawn*

Ice Blender...

it's tomorrow...!!!! weeeee...it's all about fun~!!!!

Tagged Qs~

Tagged by littlewhitemushroom *DAMN*

RULES: do the following without complains. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged. Start you post by, "I have been tagged" then do this.

YOUR TEN FAVOURITES:
colors: baby blue, purple, pink, black and of course white.
food: unpredictable.
song(s): changes regularly. =D
movies: as long its not horror!!!
sports: swimming, running, jumping around*does this count as sports?hehehe...*
season: Love winter and also summer.....*love the beach*
flavours: vanilla, chocolate chip, cookies and cream and strawberry...yum yum...know i feel like eating ice cream...
countries: Aussie, Hong Kong, Bangkok, London~
things: my baby pillow...cannot sleep in peace without it...=)

YOUR NINE CURRENTS:
current mood: Now= happy...but lately feeling sad~
current clothes: my very 1st green t-shirt... my fave jeans...and ofcourse bra and panties....T_T
current desktop: picture of my B and me.... edited by me
current toe nails: im too lazy to paint my nails now...
current time: 6.19pm
current annoyance: none~
current thoughts: Assignments. Assignments. Going out. Shopping.
current songs: Soundtracks from Musical High school and Tokyo Drift.
current chatter: none~

YOUR 8 FIRSTS:
Girlfriend: Amalina, Joyoki and Adilah
crush: a boy from Hartamas when i was in form 1.
movie: I can't remember.
piercing: When i was 7 years old.
lie: When i was 7 i think...=D
music: Nursery Rhymes. ABC.....
toy: Lego and Barbie.
cry: 23rd October 1986.

YOUR 6 LASTS:
last drink: Teh O Ais
last car ride: Mirul's chomel car.
last crush: Nicholas Ong Soon Keat...
last movie seen: When a Stranger Call....*my room-mate watch i also watch loooo....*
last phone call: my B...
last cd played: i dunno...

5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
answered already...

4 THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY:
i. Went for class.
ii. Continue sleeping.
iii. Went for lunch.
iv. Now chilling at mirul's house.

3 THINGS YOU HEAR RIGHT NOW:
i. COnversation among all of them....
ii. the pc fan....
iii. incoming msges from ym...*yahoo messenger*

THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
i. My mobile phone.
ii. Musics, Movies, PCs, Bed.

1 THING I DO WHEN I'M BORED:
Sleep, SmS my B, Chill with my friends...

WHO I WANT TO DO THIS:
Sophia, Stacy, Walter, Adilah, Dayana, Afzan, Umair....*hehehe...im being evil....miahahhaa...*

sad or happy?

I don't know what I am feeling right now....

Sad or Happy??
Which one....?
Basically i'm half sad...

WHY?
1. aunty linda(my second mum) just came out from surgery.... aunty linda is diagnose with cancer...*sigh* please to pray for her... hope she will get well soon... seeing her lying on the bed could not be able to move, my eyes became watery... its painful to see her have to go through it but it's life... no one can stop it... my late father was diagnose with liver cancer too... unfortunately my late father could not be operated so he went for one kimo therapy... he made through it but later the side effects affected his body imune system...

2. I DUNNO what else is bothering me!!

3. I'm having my period cramps...

4. Sophia is going back soon!!=( *uwaaaaaaaaaaaa*

5. NoT enough money to go shopping...

6. feeling left out among my friends...*sigh*

Happy??
1. Cause I get to spend time with my B!!!=)

2. I'm back home for the weekends...


I'm TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can actually hear my bed calling me...

tired~

hey.. im back from our very own FIRST library~

walk around, observing products and all... its was great though... i actually look at one product for a very long time... hahaha... last time was just see and walk off... now its like see and observe before walking off...

B came and surprised me...never thought he would come... i walked with sophia... yeah my cousin... my friends went other directions... felt sad though didnt walk together... i was like a stranger there...*sigh*

i shall stop sighing and get dress...meeting in an hours time...

damn~

good morning~
my day starts when my nose starts sneezing... sad hor?? wahhh... i must actually make sure that i have enough tissue paper in my bag or not ill get really uncomfortable with my nose...

the first thing i saw my watch i thought it was already 8.45am... knowing it was that time it was late...so i rush to the toilet and took my morning shower... when i got back from the shower i starred at my computer clock, i saw it was only 8.15am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

for all that rushing and it was like onl 8.15am... *sigh*

today all the MI students are gonna go on our very first visit to the library~
which is........MIDVALLEY!!! hehehehe...
hurray~

i shall be getting dress now..
laterz~

happy 6th month anniversary...

dear B,

happy 6th month anniversary B...

thank you for everything..

from putting up with my moodyness and my hyperness...

sorry if i have ever said anything to hurt your feelings...

im really happy that you came into my life...

thank you...

i love you...

love your baby pwincess...

orientation week~

well... finally i found the time to upload few photos of orientation...

oreintation week and the binding camp was great...i had funand never regret...

*aimran n me *

*nicky and me*after closing ceremony....

*group photo..thats what we are best at...hehehe...*

*we are too vain...hehehe...picture taken by thulasi..*

*the two shorty...*

*were too vain...taking pictures is what we do...*

*raja trying to be the tallest among all*

*dont we look sweet??wink wink*

*hmmm....can anyone see me??? shuk my mobile OC patner...*

hey peeps...
sorry havent been blogging...
its been long since i last blog..

now is back to studying...
semester breaks are over and no more holidays...
binding camp and orientation week is over...*sniff sniff*

im starting to miss orientation week...
okay la...i just started class and its all good...
will updated more soon...
mwah~

back~!!!

heyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

i'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey peeps...
I'm back from my very short vacation...*sigh*
I have been eating since I got to Singapore...Eat and eat and eat was what I did during the whole holiday... So I won't be surprise that if anyone comes up to me and say I put on weight... 'Yes I get your point I'm fatter!!!!'

Tomorrow I'll be heading back to MMU again for my brand new semester... Well I'm already in gamma year... WOW... how fast time flies... the next thing is graduation... hehehe...

Yesterday was my grandpa's 69th birthday... Woke up at 7 in the morning to celebrate kong's (my grandpa) birthday... the smile on his face was the smile that I haven't seen it for a long time... the house phone didn't stop ringing as it was grandpa's birthday... All his sons and daughters called to wish... So I was practically an operator for the day... hehehe... Later after lunch we went to Wild Wild Wet (a water theme park in Singapore) as mum promised Ashley and Arianna. I enjoyed myself there. Ashley and Arianna pretty much had fun... After the theme park, we can all see Ashley was exhausted. Her hyper ness all gone but the day didn't just ended there and then...

I had dinner with the whole family which included Kong-Kong, Uncle Richard, Mum, Uncle Roland, Uncle Gerard, Aunty Fauziah, Kakak, Arianna, and Ashley. We had Japanese Food for dinner... There we a lot of food on the tab... I was just helping myself with all the food... hehehe...*being a pig again... heehehe...*

That wasn't it though... My mum told me that I had to follow her to the doctors!!!!

DOCTORS it seems...!!!!

I ended up in Orchard Tower. Orchard Tower is full of 'pondans'!!!!! Yes I'm serious…. my mum dragged me to watch a pondan show!!!! (Adoi *stretch head*)
But........... I did enjoy seeing them dancing though... hahaha... the jokes they make damn funny though... I could still laugh even though my knee hurts like hell... I couldn't walk or put my leg straight... I felt like crying only... We got back around 2am... Late right??? Hehehehehe... In Singapore you would find me sleeping by 11pm and I'll be awake around 8am or 8.30am the latest... (",)

I went shopping of course in Singapore... I did help my uncle out...

That was basically what I did though during the holidays... hehehe...

Tonight I'll spend my time with my B though...Tomorrow have to go back to MMU already...
*sniff sniff*

I shall stop here...
Mwahhh~
Laterz...

hey...
im still in singapore...
went shopping...
everywhere is on sale now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going crazy already....
hehehe....
going to continue to shop again....hehehe....

while i was on the way back from the city after dinner.....ashley(my cousin), was actually singing the whole song of my humps!!!!!!!!!!!! can you believe it or not............ she is only freaking 5 years old.... i was like 'WOW'.....

okay la...i cant be online that long...
i miss my B...
uwaaaaaaaaaaa....

aite... im leaving for singapore today~
so i wont be blogging for a while...
take care...
daAaaAaaaaaaaA.....

I've been tagged by... nanie

3 Questionsname

3 schools u went to(latest)
~ Lodge International School, Kuching.
~ Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Methodist, Petaling Jaya.
~ Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Assunta, Petaling Jaya.

name 3 things in ur purse/backpack/bag
~ my purse
~ house keys/room key
~ my handphone!

name 3 things u do when u're really stressed
~ CRY
~ give up
~ go out

name 3 places u go on a daily basis
~ my room
~ the bathroom
~ the kitchen*to look for food*

name 3 favourite fruits
~ guava
~ apple
~ durian*smelly but yum yum~*

3 names u go by
~ gurl
~ dee dee
~ deena!

3 of ur favourite foods
~ rice
~ curry mee
~ cili padi*does that count?hehehe*

3 things u'r wearing right now
~ my panties ofcourse
~ my pyjama dress
~ my boxer

The Whos

who's in the house with u?
~ my mummy
~ uncle roland
~ bear bear =p

who (or what) r u thinking about right now?
~ when am I gonna finish this
~ do I really have to go to Singapore???
~ what is my B gonna do when im not ere

who did u last talk to on the phone?
~ my B
~ uncle roland
~ my mummy

who do u sit next to in your class?
~ hasanah, azie, airman, nanie, kak anis, marissa

who was the last person u told u loved?
~ my B
~ my mummy

who do wish u were right now?
~ nobody right now

who gets on ur nerves the most at school?
~ obviously I wont say it here! for me to know for you to find out *blueks*

The Wheres

where do u live?
~ pantai hill park

where is ur phone?
~ on my table beside the keyboard

where do u sleep?
~ on my bed la duhhhh!

where is the last place u took a ride to?
~ subang =D

where are u now?
~ at home la duhhh *where else can I be???*

The Whats

what was the last thing u ate?
~ rice, chicken, veggie, soup

what colour shirt r u wearing?
~ white

what is the closest item near u that is blue?
~ my wall

what do u like best about school?
~ i get to learn new things of course and also get to meet friends la

what is ur favourite colour?
~ blue
~ black
~ white
~ purple

what do u wear more: jeans or shorts?
~ jeans

what is the last movie that u watched?
~ X-men 3

The Whens

when did u start school?
~ I cant remember *hehehehe*

when is ur birthday?
~ 23rd October 1986

when did u last go to the mall?
~ yesterday

when was the last time u bought a pair of pants?
~ errr...few months back if im not mistaken

when did u last burn something?
~ a week ago

Next victim would be......*being an angel I choose*....

• Stacy Tan
• Sophia
• Afzan
• Azie
  
  

NO more exams....

but im down with a headache!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

check this out...
its damn cool....
click here

good day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehehehe... one more paper to go which is on thursday~
i cant wait for holidays~

dear diary....

WOW.... It has been really long since I blogged... Well, firstly I've been busy... I'm having my finals... and everytime I wanna blog, internet connection in MMU sucks big time... Page can't even load... so I gave up... I have two more papers to go then i'll be on a 10 days holiday... *sigh* well... At least i'll still be around on my anniversary... My aunty and my cousin are aroun in kuala lumpur... There been soooo much happening but in short, everything is ok... Everything is going great... Life is ok... There are times when i'm feeling down and also up!

Hmmmmm.... I shall blog another day.... I'm really exhausted and sleepy~

Off too bed now....

adios~

tired and tired and tired...

im soooooooooo tired... but happy that my MDP assignment are off my hands... all has been submit to my lecturers... phew~ well well... final exam starts on monday... then its the holidaysssssssss....ehehhehe....i cant wait actually... eventhough its just 10 days break... i havent been getting enough sleep for the pass few days... helping hasanah and liana doing their assignment... collected my sculpture... now all i could think of is my bed... heheehe... my energy is really worn out for the entire week! i can pratically hear my bed saying ' come on deena....youre tired and you need sleeeeep....' hehehe...
my brain is blank...dont know what to jot down in here...so i think its best if i head for bed...
peace...=p

what a day... phew~ im down with one more assignment to finish which is mdp... my sketches... im soooooooo lazy to do... my right arm is damn painful... it's liek i cant lift my arm up... =(
my final exam starts on the 15 may, 17 may, 18 may, 19 may, 22 may, 25 may... *sigh* than its holiiiiiiiiiiiiiday!!!! hurrrray!!!!
production book for mpm is already ready for binding... hehehe... sooo happy!

have to studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...uwaaaaaaaaaaa....

B...this song is for you...

Look into my eyes, you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart,search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do, I do it for you

Look into my heart, you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am,take my life
I would give it all, I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it, there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do, I do it for you

There's no love, like your love
And no other, could give more love
There's nowhere, unless you're there
All the time, all the way

Oh! you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it, there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you, I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you, ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do, I do it for you

dear diary...
last nite after playing pool at asia club we went for dinner...actually supper...i ordered waffle...i waited for an hour and my food didnt arrive...so i ask the aunty...and she say "the waffle machince broke down!" i was like what the hell... why cannot tell earlier... so i decided to chill and order curry laksa... and it tooooook damnnnnn blooooooody long.....! i was damn hungry and the food didnt come!!!!!!!!!! so i got damn pist!!! i just told all my friend that lets go home... fuck the food and go home... it was damn late already!!!! uwaaaaaaaaa.... and also my handbag spoil edi!!! so today im gonna go get a new hand bag...that was my fave hand bag!!! uwaaaaa.... my B is still sleeping... i dont know what time we going shopping! okay la...i have to pack to go back to mmu... sigh! hate going back there sometimes... feel like staying home... but one more week im on holiday.... okok i got to go...B just called...means i got to get ready... mwahhh~

damn a lot of times i change my layout... cause everytime i change it doesnt seems rite... *sigh*
finally i came down with this... what do you think?? nothing much though... its still simple though... anyways im down with a flu.. *sick again* i went to hartamas just now... met B there... gave him his present.. hope he likes it...

B,
no matter how carnky and moody but i want you to know that i love you very much...
please keep that in mind kayh B...
thank you for everything..
you are the light in my life...
i love you B..

love your baby...

dear diary...

good afternoon... finally get to get out of bed... but i still feel like i dont have enough of sleep... havent been having enough though... im back home for the weekends... sleeping is all i can think of... i was suppose to wake up early to go do my license though... but i couldnt... so probably later after friday prayers... B cant come back yesterday but he is coming back today.... weeeeeee... i mish him sooo much... yesterday the bunch of us went to alamanda... when we was on the way back... azie, hasanah n me were hyper... we actually layan all the songs that nanie plaed in the car... we did dancing, head banging and other stuff while we were three seating at the back seat... we were laughing soooooo much until nanie had to open the window coz we were tooo loud... i had a really good time... pretty much enjoyed myself... laughter is the best medicine though... anyway im still having my cramps... and now i have a pimple inside my nose.... damnnnnnnnn painful man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dear diary...

my sculpture i have decided that i send it to the shop... presentation for mpm is today... presentation for mci is tommorrow... im having my cramps... damn pain ful... i shall lie down now..

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

dear diary...

well welll.... overall i had a good weekend... spending my time with my B and all my friends... today is labours day... its a holiday for everyone... weeeeee... but im stuck with my assignments... sad hor?? anyways B, ming wei, natalie, falique, and me went and see kristen's concert... thumbs up though... nice nice... hehehe... enjoyed seeing her pulling up her skirt when she was dancing... hehehe... and see-ing the little kids having the fun of their time on stage running up and down... it was awesome though... we took pictures but sadly i dont have my card reader to upload the pictures... after the concert we got free food though... we eventually lied to kristen that we were on the wayto hartamas when we were sitting there waiting for her to actually come... laugh like mad cow when she walked in and saw us... hehehehe... after that we had down to her house coz she wanted to change and remove her make-up... than we were off to play pool... hehehe... i really enjoy playing pool now... hehehe... even though im not that pro in it... i ate dinner with the same people... gavin, justin, and oliver joined in... sit and chit chat till 11 sumthing... than we decided to head home... B bought me a pair of earring... and i bought myself one with my own cash... hehehe... so now i have to new earrings... im now lying on my bed while typing this out and also waiting for my B to come online... im damn tired... didnt get to sleep well though... was awaken by the screaming and the shouting.. *sigh* i hope tomolo will be a fine day for me... i love nicholas sooo much now... and i really dont want to loose him... he means soo much to me and i really appreciate what he has done for me... well i really pray that everything goes well for him and i really hope that he will get what he wants...*dont worry b* [i pray you'll get it!] i shall stop now... that was what happen today... thanks to all my fwens... my sister*kristen and natalie*... love them alll.... mwahhhhhhhhh....

A beautiful pray..

I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly caresand brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own! ,but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.

THIS DAY IS YOURS DON'T THROW IT AWAY

May God Bless You,
"To the world you might be one person, but to oneperson you just might be the world"

dear diary...

yesterday kong went back to singapore... so now im home alone and its sooo lonely... sigh... i miss my grandpa... i pray that he will be safe throughout the whole journey... anyway i hv to start unpacking... i had a good sleep last nite... hehehe... yay!! finally...so now i hv to clean my whole room and i have to arrange the stuff properly...coz i brought back some stuff from campus...

later la...

dear diary...

the last time i blog was on the 18 april... damn long rite... sorry la.. was really busy with my assignment and all... submission tomorrow... im sitting here in my room wishing and praying that che mat is in a better mood than today...

loads have been happening around here...

1. Submission is tomorrow and i finish already doing it...

*there are more pictures but im toooooo lazy to upload loads of them...


3. Quicksilver Revolution Tour ....
I got free tickets.... It was at Sunway Lagoon... So all of us brought our ass to Sunway Lagoon... A wonderful day trip... B, me, mingwei, kristen, natalie, justin, navin went... I saw loads of people i know too... hehehe... lost friends i call it... hehehe.... had sooo much fun though... really enjoyed myself...

4. hmmm....had an arguement with mummy...*sigh*

5. Last but not least...
I cut my hair short!!!!! really short!!! yesh i mean SHORT!!!! boy cut short!!! hehhee...
wanna see??? hehhee...ill upload it soon...

okayh la......i wanna help my two room-mates and marissa do thier assignment..peace out...
mwahhh~

dear diary...

its been a week i think... now im currently not asleep becoz im doing my maya...have to submit later... im tired...stress...sleepy...worried! luckily im not barred from MCA subject...i got hostel for next year academic year...i got OC *which stands for Orientation Committee* for the new batch of student.... i miss my b... last weekend i have been going to church with B coz he wants me to be there with him... he served on good friday mass... mum's birthday turn out to be ok... im getting her greese tickets for her birthday present... uncle richard was down for the weekend so he was there for mum's birthday... brought kong out... went shooping with uncle richard... bought a new printer at the pc fair... =)

now...all i can think of is all my assignments...
1. mdp...
2. lcc (poster)
3. mca *final assignment*
4. mcc *final assignment*
5. mpm*editting*
6. study for mlc final exam...
7. lastly is....mci *final assignment*

i have to do more research for my mdp!!!! stop watching series or any movie for the mean time!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tomolo is 2nd ACAA!!! finally...wanna get that over with and concertrate more on ym assignments...

okeyh la..i shall stop...
mwahhhhhhhhhh...

dear diary,

im back home again... hehehe... today holiday... thats why im back home... i love being home... grandpa is around somemore... im sooooooooooooooooooo tired... my shoulder hurts...my neck hurts and my back hurts like a mad cow... hehehe...
im off to bed after playing pool with b online...
mwahhh...
nitez...

dear diary,

what a day... mum cooked sarawak laksa... i had a really heavy lunch... b and ming wei came for lunch... hehehe... tiring day though... im still back home and i dont wanna go back to campus... but i have too... i have class tomolo... but tuesday is a holiday! hehehe... i did my cover letter and my resume for my lcc assignment... now i think i should get ready to head back to mmu... laterz... mwahhh...

dear diary...

my group finally finish shooting... now its editing time... but i dunno when are we going to edit the video... anyway im really tired... assignments not done yet!!! im doomed!!!

this poem is for my b!

I am forever yours...
because when
you hold me,
I feel like
nothing else
matters
more than the love
I've found with you.

I am forever yours...
because only
with you can I
capture a moment
where I know
what it's like
to feel heaven,
only with you
have I ever felt
so safe, so loved.

dear diary,
good morning...
damn i didnt attend mdp class... i couldnt wake up...
was soooo exhausted...
went for shooting the whole day yesterday... my energy was worn out yesterdday... but the time i lied on the bed i was drop dead... i couldnt feel my head and toes at the end of the day... my eyes was sooo heavy...
okayh la... need to do my assignment now... laterz....

dear diary,

i have been reallly patient... but when it is over the limit... ill burst... among me and my group members, they are making it my fault... when i say something... they just have to say why last minute and everything... one fucking bloody reason why i wanted everyone to follow is basically to discuss this n that n this that!!!!!!!! now some of my bloody group member say why last minute... this that this that... why we didnt plan early... when wanna have meeting.... no one is free la...this that this that... yea i know lack of communication... theres one person im close to in my group, now also we mcm tak rapat... sedih tau... when ever i wanna say stuff... she always gives me the look and brush me away... how am i suppose to explain when people are like that to me... why cant they give me a chance to bloody fucking explain... if thats testing your patient... what is this?? where the fuck is the group work that we have talked about? our bloody group name is about team work... when we have discussion... mesti ader disagreement and show long face... i know there will be disagreement... but just dont fucking show your fucking long face... why dont YOU be the director of all place...?? not eveyrhting can go your way... even me i have to soetimes follow you all nyer agreement this and that... communication error... when we wanna try to get hold of one another thats one big fucking problem..
dah la...
fuck la~!!!

dear diary,
finally finish my maya assignment... i actually finish animating few shit in it... damn susah... now i just wanna lie in bed and sleep... badly need sleep... i can actually hearing my bed calling me... my b is already in bed... he is tired... was working the whole day... poor thing...

b..
You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything
Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know
You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time...

I love you B...
..mwahhh...

dear diary,

what a day... stress!!!!! i badly need a break!!! im serious!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... im sooo tired today... running up and down... but one thing is done... voice over recording is done!!! hurray!!! at least one thing is done... im currently waiting for my maya to render... i think im almost done... i just simple do as long i submit it only... i need to sleep... thats all that matters rite now... laterz...

dear diary,

im back in mmu and i feel like going back home... i wonder if im home sick... *sigh* why are the weekends damn short... i want it to be longer... i want to spend more time at home instead back in mmu... *uwaaaaaa* im like a cry baby now... my eyes and nose are red... really red... i bet if tomorrow (i mean later) i wake up my eyes are gonna be swollen... marissa is actually giving us free face treatment for us... hehehe... yeah... i just found out that i hv three pimples popping out!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... dont like! dont like!
hehehe..
i better head off to bed now... later aite..
mwahhh..

so long and gud nite...

dear diary,

im like my moody mood!! fuck everything la...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...!!!!

dear diary...
goooooood morning... i had a gud sleep but my shoulder aches again~ *sigh* i have to get ready soon... b is taking me out fo lunch... hurray... cant wait though... mwahhh...

to my B,
you mean the world to me... thank you for bringing the light into my life... you have been rushing up and down for me to see me... that i thank you... i really appreciate what you have done for me... there is sooo much to say but in short... I LOVE YOU!

dear diary...
what a day... brought kong to church and than had dinner at home... mom cooked... b, ming wei, kristen and gavin came... uncle george and the kids came also... after a while they were all over b... they were climbing onto b to sit on him... i guess they love b too... hehehe...they were partically fighting for their turn to sit on b... ming wei also kena... hehehe... anyway the food was gooooood.... thanks to mummy... she is a great cook... they enjoyed themselves... playing with my cousins... gavin got tricked by uncle roland and uncle george.... kristen also kena... haahahaha.... damn funny man! laugh until my stomach hurts... its all cause of laughing sooo much... they just went off... b actually ask mummy whether he could bring me out for lunch... yay... at least i can spend my weekend with b... heehhe.... okay la im really worn out... really tired...

so long and good nite....
mwahhh...

dear diary,

good morning... or shall i say good afternoon... im like doing three things at one time... going online, watching tee-v, and drawing... hehehe.... im this cool animatin movie this morning... its call the arc... not bad la... i bet they use maya to do all that... its sooo nice... im not the type of person who watches this type of movie but i find this pretty amuse... its something like final fantasy but this one its just different than final fanasy... heehe... im waiting for my turn to bath than im going out for lunch... i made breakfast for kong... hehehe... he is gonna be in kl fr about a month though... in the mean time i dont think mum is going out-station when kong is around...
okay la... i shall finish shading this and off i go to the bathroom to have a warm shower...

+satisfied+

dear diary,
today is april fools day... do i feel like fooling anyone??? the answer is NO! im not in the mood of fooling anyone or i just hope no one is gonna fool me.. im afraid that i will just snap at them... im currently not in a good mood... i think im having my pms! i hate it though... i think azie is mad at me... which i dont know why... *sigh* i just dont know what to do anymore... *sigh* im soo tired... my shoulder is starting to ache already... b has started work yesterday... at least now he has something to doduin the holidays besides going out... hehehe... my grandpa is here in kl... he was in singapore before he came to kl... he is now enjoying himself watching tee-v... its like really late and he is still watching tee-v... last nite mum cooked crab for dinner... kong (my grandpa) reall ate a lot though... my mum is surprise and happy to see my grandpa eat though... b came for dinner yesterday... just now we had dinner in usj with uncle geogre, aunty marianne, maria, gwen, madeline, uncle roland, mum, and timothy... we brought kong for dinner... had fun though... maria put on weight though... the last time i saw her, she was skinny... now a bit chubbier.. im stuffed with loads of food... just finish discussing about few stuff with my group members... *IM SORRY AZIE*
i woke up quite early though... had to go to the bank to settle some stuff... paid up my first year loan... felt relieved though... if i do not pay up the first year loan... the ammount to pay back when i wait will be more... *sakit hati wor*
okay la... i shall stop now... maybe later in the da day time, maria n gwen is comin...
aite... gud nite...

new look on my page..what do you think???
hurmmm...
well...from the way it is..you all sure will know that i love butterflies...
hahaha...
anyway hope you all enjoy it..n do leave ur comments..

+tired+

dear diary,
sorry i havent been blogging...there is sooo much work to do...not feeling well...no mood to be in campus...now im back home for the weekends...i feel much better...its week 8 already...soon this semester is ending...i cant wait...im sooooo freaking tired! all i wanna do now is sleeeeeeeeeeeep as much as possible...
okayh la...i wanna continue drawing somemore...den im off to bed! i can hear the bed calling me!

mood swings back again...
i have sooo much assignments that i need to do!!!!!
some i dont even know what to do!!!
i badly need a holiday...!!
there are times when im really moody and also very hyper..
probably my hyperness is just a temporary thing so I would not get moody at all...Just trying to not think of my bad side...
*sigh*

hey...it's been since 4 days since i last blog...i miss my blog...was down with a fever, sorethoart, cough, and flu....stressful week...!!!should have started my assignemnt earlier and i wont suffered...i had a bad mirgraine on monday night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg~~~~ i felt like the whole world spinning around me like a rollarcoaster which goes round and round 360 degrees non-stop!!!! argh...today is the day im longing for...
im going back home!!!!hurray!!!! i miss mummy and home..!
*sigh*

It's Sebastian's and Ashely-Ann's birthday...Sadly I cannot celebrate with Ashley in Singapore though...I just had dinner at my B's place...Consider Sebastian's birthday dinner...Sebastian is my B's lil bro...*if you guys are wondering who the hell he is..*
I'm like sooo worried for my assignments...*uwaaaaa* Submition is on Tuesday!!!! I'm doom!
I've been hanging out at Asia Club with my B, Kristen, Ming Wei, Gavin, Justin, and....*God knows la*
B thought me how to play pool....Soooo happy I can actually play it now...but not as pro as B...I'm still stuck at B's place waiting for him to shower and Sebastian is gonna cut his birthday cake..WEeeeeee.....I'm stuffed! I cant barely bent down to reach for my toes...That is how full I am...!
I don't know why I dont feel like going back to campus this whole week! I'm not in the mood....*sigh*
I'm sooooo looking forward for next weekend...The week havent started but I'm already wanting it to be the weekends again...
Okay la...I have got nothing better to do la...I wonder what I shall do now!*sigh*

+tired and happy+

It's Friday...One bright morning...Longing to sleep more but I dont think I can...Still sick...! My flu is getting worst than ever...My thoart still sore like a mad cow...Can't talk much though...
I dont know what i'll be doing today...I have no pplans for today...Sad huh?

Anyways i'll blog later... Wanna lie down a bit...My head is spinning like a mad cow~!

Its almost end of the week... Everyday I wish it was the weekends where I can sleep and also go out with my B...But this whole week, I wasnt feeling tooo well....I'm down with a sore thoart, bad flu, cough, and slight fever!! Got medication...and MC letter's as well... But at the same time...loads of assignments are pending!!! Soooo worried!!! Sooo much to do....*feel like going back to school days now!!!*

Just now during I was at Internet Application class, it rain really heavy... Both my room-mates didnt want to offer to go back and close the room window...With my bad flu I had to go back...They really didnt pity me!!!Sooo upset!! I eventually got all wet and my flu got worst!!! (To my two room-mates, if u both are reading this im sorry but im really upset!) I also wanted to learn as much as what you both were learning...At the same time I didnt understand what my tutor was teaching...Imagine the wind was soooo strong and I was soooooooooooo weak, the wind could blow me away!!! Now my flu is getting worst and im shivering soo badly...*sigh*

anyways im gonna take a rest now...Where is my B when I need him the most at times like this...*sigh*

hmmm....what shall i say?? I had unforgetable moments with my B...He stayed for dinner with mummy and uncle roland... teman me at home... he stayed while i was doing my little bags for my assignment... after mass, we went out for dinner with kristen, natalie, and gavin... we ate, chill, talk, laugh until our tummy hurts.... Kristen was partically making tons of jokes... I choke few times... eventhough im having my period cramps but I had sooo much fun... thanks to kristen and natalie though... They such a darling to me~ I LOVE THEM~ two lil sister with three different mothers...hehehe... yeah...played fusball...kristen was a clown..she was partically scoring in my goal instead of hers... my B now having headache...I hope he will be fine~

B you take care aite..
mwahhh....

Good Morning!!

I had the most amazing sleep after sooo many days~But I still feel like sleeping somemore but I know I cant...I've got to do my laundry~! *sigh* and loads of assignment to do!!! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

okok...I better start doing it before I waste another day doing nothing.!!!

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I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking toooooo blog... My morning class is canceled..But I have presentation at 4pm for my Media Production assignment... *madness*

I was on MC yesterday due to some pain and wasn't being able to sit still...Wish me luck for my presentation later... I'm sooo sleepy...!I can eventually feel my eyes dropping! I can't barely open my eyes!!!!

.: back on my feet :.

I think I'm getting back on my feet again...Went for class so far for today, Digital Animation class was canceled...Tons of assignment though...At the same time I have to give out the letter of my absentee for the whole week... I'm soooo scared~ *sigh* Loads to think about... I just came back from bangi...Sooo happy to see my B though...Now I cant barely feel my feet anymore...My brain has stop working...But now they are gonna have the fire drill...I'm damn tired...Do I have to go??*crying* Damn lazieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....Got to go now...

.: sad week :.

what a week...on monday got the news from my aunty in singapore that my grandma pass away...i was sooo shocked...i was soooo sad...just sat down at the corner while waiting for my mum's friend to come pick me up...didnt attend class the whole week...was back in kuching for my last respect to my grandma...the funeral was on thursday...we had prayers for my grandma every night...its just sooo sad knowing that mamah isnt alive anymore...

mamah passed away in her sleep...she wore her dress that she wanted to wear when she die...she look sooo peacefully when she lie there in her cofin...

despite that all her sons and daughters came back...its sooo good to see all the 6 of them together...but not all my cousins were able to make it...kong kong was still blur but i can see deep down in his heart he is very very sad~ kong kong even told me when i arrived not to cry...actually when someone goes already its not good to cry cause its like stopping them from going to heaven and not letting them go...but the fact that mamah is my grandma and she was a mum to my mother, i couldnt stand but cry...

sophia actually made a edulogy for mamah...it was read during the mass...its was specially dedicated to mamah...

A Sonnet for Mama Mary

O glorious bearer of God's children!
Since the day angels placed you here oon earth,
'Til the day they guided you to heaven,
A wondrous life of compassion you lived.

You hath provided food for plenty.
Not only in body, but in too in mind.
Time comes now for you to be provided
By the many whose lives you touched upon.

Altough beauty fades thoroughly with age,
Thy beauty- like the North Star- shines always.
Inspiring only goodness in our hearts.
Our hearts. In which you ceaselessly remain.

As we pray for your dear soul to release...
Mama Mary. Forever rest in peace.

align="center">After this sonnet...We dedicated a song to mama...It was edited and sang by Uncle George....

Tears in Heaven

Would you know our names

If we saw you in heaven

Would it be the same

If we saw you in heaven

We must be strong

And carry on

Cause we know we dont belong

Here in heaven

Would you hold our hand

If we saw you in heaven

Would you help us stand

If we saw you in heaven

We'll find our way

Through night and day

Cause we know we dont belong

Here in heaven

Time can bring you down

Time can bend your knees

Time can break your heart

Having begging please

Begging please~

*and theres the bridge where i cant remember* sigh

Will be continue...

This was the song..I'm sure you guys know this song...

Mamah, I love you...May you rest in eternal peace and you'll always be in my heart....

.: happy :.

It's been a while since I last blog... I wanted to blog badly but I couldnt upload pictures, so I didnt... hehehe... Anyway I had the most amazing valentines dinner with my B...

this is me n my B...

the flower that he gave me on valentine's day...

this was my B's meal...

this was MINE~ yummy rite?


ultimate magarita...*picture blur la...taken with phone camera*

Well...we had dinner at *tgif*... thanks B...
I had a great dinner...Really appreciate it..

Besides that, I have been really busy with classes...My schedule is damn packed! Assignments are all here...*sigh* back to stress world I say... but at the same time im having fun...Mum is back from Beijing..She pretty enjoyed herself over there... She touched and seen snow already...*sigh* I also want to see and touch snow...

Okay la...Im dead tired now...
Laterz...

My B,
Im always here for you no matter what...I hope I'm not a stranger to you...
Thank you for completing and lighting my life up...
I cherish every moment we are together...
I love you...I never felt this way in a long time...Thank you B...

::I LoVe yOu::

Lurve always,
-ME-

heyo... its the first weekend..mum is not around..she left for beijing yesterday morning..yesterday and todays class is official cancelled by the lectures and the tutorials...i dont even know whether i had enough of sleep yet...woke up follow nanie, hasanah, and azie to sepang... well, a new experience everyday... today im planning to go to kl area to buy new stuff for my computer...planning to upgrade my ram to a 1GB... then going to look for my textbook~ damn this semester we need a textbook!!! sooooo not a fcm student...hahaha...anyway im at my B's place...waiting for his mummy to come back from her interview...I hope n pray it goes well for her... Hope she will get the job!!! I'm sooo hungry~ uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

today is the second day of class... still MMU is still very quiet... i dont know for what reason... second day with all the lecturers scaring us what we have to face for this whole 14 weeks of semester... loads of group assignment, presentation, and not to forget individual assignment... im cracking my head to find myself a group... im sooo scared but at the same time i am very eager to look forward to all of this.. this is where is stress begins... *sigh*

new semester starts new things are gonna happen... i dont know what shit we have to go through but i hope and pray that i will eventually get through it and not to give up on anything that easily...

i mish my home... i wish it was still holidays where i can laze around the whole day doing nothing... sleep all i want... and spent my time in front of the tee-v... sadly here back in mmu, i dont own a tee-v in my room...

a new semester begins tomorrow...
sitting here waiting for the day to come...
tired... and a lil sleepy... im not really looking forward for classes~
*sniff sniff*
holidays are toooo short~

havent been sparing any time to write in here... been going out since i got back from singapore... meeting up with loads of my friends and also spending most of my times with my B...

loads to update but not today~
sorry~
too tired~