a change!!!!!!

It was time to put everything to the end. It was time to let go all the anger and not let anything destroy our relationship. I guess my emotional control myself during this past few days. I couldn’t help it but to be jealous of everything and trying to find fault for every single thing that has been happening throughout the past few days.

Jealously will always be there but I hope that I would not feel that way most of the time. I have to learn how to trust someone and I just hope that the trust would be given and would prove my thinking wrong.

Things are not the same like the first time we meet but I hope it would be much better and we would work it out to be better. Currently it is getting better. Much lesser of the arguing but I still get upset with the words that I hear or the actions that turn out to be much different than we discuss. I am trying. I miss everything. I’m missing you.

Anyway, Chinese New Year is around the corner. My family has decided to spend our Chinese New Year in Penang. Penang here I come. Hope that I would enjoy myself anyway and also get loads loads of ang pow.

To be continue…

...

this should stop right now.

sorry.

I feel that i'm loosing everything that matters to me. We would just fight even of simple little things. I'll just feel upset but things get worst every minute. I get upset with little and little of things at this moment. Is it because it's the 'pms' month??? i don't really know what is going on with me. We would get mad at each other very fast and the words that we use against each other are just so hurtful to take. I still remember the time where we say that we hate each other so much. I regret it every single day and trying to be a better person at the same time work things out but I don't see it improving at the moment. I feel that I am not important and there is no conversation between one another.

I really miss us. Sorry i'm not good enough for you.

november to january~

surprise?hehehe.. im back.. i thought i have forgotten my username and password but no...its still fresh in my mind..

well i would say bye bye to 2007.. i know im a lil late for that but as you have seen i havent been blogging for ages...

i am currently going into my final semester... holidays are just over and now is my final semester.. fwehhhhhhhhh... i pass my second semester.. so stress.. i just want to get through this and start working and get my own money to spend... heehhehe.. so i would at least put off the burden of my mum...

its already almost the end of january of the year 2008 and lots have happened!!!

i think im gonna loose someone that who really meant to me... i feel soooooo sad and i think that we will not ever be the same.. i wish that it didnt happen just 10 minutes ago... im looking forward to head back to campus but now its all shattered! hoping that holidays will continue actually... sigh.. i dont know what to do anymore right this moment.. it has been really hard for me... things are getting worst and im being the worse and a useless friend..

hoping and praying at this moment trying not to cry in front of my mother. sigh! be patient deena! you'll be strong *hopefully* and you dont need it right now... just miss everything.. =(

:)

wow. wow! its been a very long time.. it was the holidays and now back to school as they say.. but for me...the holiday fever is still in me.. hehehe.. and im down with a virus. im down with a high fever.. sigh..
just hoping to get well soon...

have you ever?

Have you ever loved somebody so much

It makes you cry

Have you ever needed something so bad

You can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words

But they don't come out right

Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love

Been in love so bad

You'd do anything to make them understand

Have you ever had someone steal your heart away

You'd give anything to make them feel the same

Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart

But you don't know what to say

And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one

You've dreamed of all of your life

You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to

Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

Have you ever closed your eyes and

Dreamed that they were there

And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby

What do I gotta say to get to your heart

To make you understand how I need you next to me

Gotta get you in my world'

Cuz baby I can't sleep

holiday?

hey...exams are over...for ME la... hehehe...
Online Advertising paper was ok..but i did forget few stuff...*sigh* how forgetful can i be...hehehe...

anyway holiday!!!!
weeeee...
hurray!!!!
hehehe..
but but but but...NO holiday for me... *sigh sigh* <---double sigh for me!

anyway to all my muslim friends out there....
selamat hari raya~

and to all MMU students...
happy holidays~

*smile*

everything is ok~
everything is better~
BUT my cramps are bad!

hurt!

I'm hurt!
I'm hurt with the words you use against me!
I'm hurt by the way you talk to me! Thats why I become more harsh!
*sigh*
All I wanted was for you to stop me from going away! Thats all and it became so bad.
Its not all good now so I shall just leave you alone.

To all MMU students,
GOOD LUCK for finals~

Last but not least....
Internship is over.
Finally!
But I have one paper to sit for this semester and then off for a so call holiday!
During the holidays i'll have to do my research for my Final Year Project(FYP)!

confused...

I sometimes wonder do I belong with them?
Where do I stand now among them?
I simply do NOT know now...
See-ing the pictures of them...
I dont think I even exist anymore...
I may not be like them but I dont know why I feel this way...

*confused*

daddy...

i wish i could still hear my dad talk...
i wish i could still talk to my dad...
i wish i could still hear him telling me bed time stories...
i wish i could still sit beside my dad...
i wish i could spend my day with my dad...
i wish i could still see him here with me...
i wish i could enjoy many more times with him...

i miss having my dad around..
it has been 9 years he has been gone yet i still miss him as much i miss being myself...
i miss having a dad around me...

daddy,
no one can replace you..
i miss you..
i love you daddy...
i wish you could see me now...
dad,im in a university and also in my final year...
people say that the people who went will be in our hearts... i know you're here with me... but i still wish that i could have you around to protect me...
daddy...happy birthday~
i really miss having you around...

love your only daughter,
deena...

hugs~

pray is all you can do.. hope that she will be fine and recover...
my prayers are with her family and herself itself..
dont give up..

*adik be strong*

sleepy~

weekends are over here come the weekdays...
*sniff sniff*
one more week to go or lets just say its my last week working..
i do anjoy working here but at the same time i cant wait to finish...

my room is finally finish!!!! weeeeeeeeee... i have new cupboards.....hehehe... weeeeeeeeeeeee....and its whiteeeeeeeeeeeeee...

9 words~

9 words that women always use:

1. Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes <----not true for me!!!!!!
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing
This is the calm before the storm.
This means something, and you should be on your toes.
Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh
This is actually a word,but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.
A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing.
(Refer back to #3 forthe meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay <---this one im not sure!!!!
This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man.
That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever Is
a women's way of saying F@*K YOU! <----true aaaa???

9. Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement,meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, butis now doing it herself.
This will later result...


okay!!!! some is NOT true for ME but i dont know about others... IM WEIRD!!!

PMS or angry or upset?

which one is it? pms = Premenstrual Syndrome or angry?? or upset??

at this moment you may think im going through my PMS mode... but i dont think so.. i do NOT blame it PMS but im angry... im angry at you... its like im invisible... the things you say are not being fullfill.. what do i have to do... its so sad knowing the fact you just ignore it..

hate to feel this way but im hurt!

the fasting month for all muslims~

well well...what can i say..ramadhan begins for the muslims around the world..for my muslim friends here in mmu i just wanna wish you all selamat berpuase.. and be gud and dont notty notty.. hehehehe..they will start fasting today until 12 October...than it will be raya for them... money money coming in.. hehehe..

this is what wikipedia has to say about the fasting month...
During Ramadan, Muslims are also expected to put more effort into following the teachings of Islam as well as refraining from anger, envy, greed, lust, sarcastic retorts, backbiting, and gossip. They are encouraged to read the Qur'an. Sexual intercourse during fasting in the day is not allowed but is permissible after the fast (when referring to sexual intercourse, it is intended to mean with one's spouse alone, as all pre- and extra-marital relations are strictly forbidden in Islam). Obscene and irreligious sights and sounds are to be avoided. Purity of both thought and action is important. The fast is intended to be an exacting act of deep personal worship in which Muslims seek a raised level of closeness to God. The act of fasting is said to redirect the heart away from worldly activities, its purpose being to cleanse the inner soul and free it from harm. Properly observing the fast is supposed to induce a comfortable feeling of peace and calm. It also allows Muslims to practice self-discipline, sacrifice, as well as sympathy for those who are less fortunate, intending to make Muslims more generous and charitable.

SAKTI dancers perform for Tritun's CLosing ceremony~

the dancer's

the brothers~

src @ mcD..* memories*

its time to step down... hehehe... the hu ha's we create soon to be memories.. one of them at mcd...hehehe...even though at times we dont get along but the fun and laughter i really cherished them..gonna miss you guys.. good luck to all of you..and for those who are still around...join la balik src tu...hehehehe... i sokong you all...hehehehehe...

*hugs and kisses from me*

under one roof

shaza, izzah and deena

my two room-mates... hehehehe...love both of you very much~

SRC ELECTION FOR 2007/2008

all MMU students out there.. do take part and nominate yourself to be an SRC council member.. dont like anything or not satisfied with the ways of others, be an SRC member and make the difference yourself.. go for it~