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the clock is ticking... how am i suppose to let someone in my heart now??? i don't know how anymore... the day is almost gone and nothing from you... sigh!

i ask one person to move on as i don't want to get hurt... i really don't want to get hurt anymore...
i think its best that i should stand on my on feet and not depend on anyone anymore...

signing off for today~

a great weekend

yay~ im back from malacca trip with the family... here are some pictures... it was hot and tiring as mum made us walk from one end to the other end... but on sunday, 4 of us had 'cirit birit'... i had to visit the toilet for 4 times... but in the end it was a great weekend to spend with my family, kristen and fabian... =)

waiting...

Soph and Tarn has gone back to Singapore already and I'm back to square one... what a tiring week i had... driving up and down to bring them shopping... now its time to get some rest and also back to work!!! finals are around the corner and i need to get my feet back in doing my final year project... the second part of it is the editing of the video... i had way too much fun... this weekend I'll be heading to Malacca with mum and her friends... i guess this will be the last weekend i will enjoy for the mean time... next week is work time... tonight is 3rd ACAA... hehehe... cant wait.. I'll be getting my hair done at 4pm... weeeeeeeeeeee... I'm excited! cant wait too look preeeettttyyy tonight! I'm gonna take a short nap for a while while I wait for the time to strike 4!

after

*after*

two people ended up drunk! hahaha.. sophia and fabian... me tarn and kristen couldnt stop laughing out loud at the both of them the whole nite... but we all had fun... =)

before

*before*

the night at maison with my cousin and my besties...

over!

Submission one is over!!! hehehe.. yay!!! but theres another submission coming up in week 15... sigh... i cant wait for this semester to end and i can start work!!!! weeeeeeeeeee... money coming in.. hehehe...

submission over but im sick!!! AGAIN!

on saturday, sophia is coming down to kl... weeee... shopping!!! damn money again! *sigh*

happy birthday mummy~

MUMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
its your birthday today!!!! and you're not here to celebrate with me!
but i know you're enjoying yourself in singapore!
hahahaha...

dear mummy,
happy birthday!!!
your 52 this year...
but you still look young!!! like meeeeeeeeee! hehehe...
i love you mummy..

*hugs and kisses*

love your lovely daughter!

:)

this weekend was awesome... loads of assignment pending but i manage to keep myself free for sean kingston in zouk... it was awesome... i had fun! so much fun.. hehehe... and then after zouk we all head to poppy's... hehehe... club like crazy dance like crazy... lepas stress! hahaha...

last nite we went to laundry... all of us again... haih

now im worried that i cannot finish my assignment..
die! submission on tuesday...

update later...

sick!

all this while im trying to get sick and now when i cant afford to get sick im down with a fever! throat pain pain! body aching! head pain pain!

why now????? submission next week... i cant afford to get sick!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhh...

stress!
stress!
stress!
stress!
stress!
stress!
stress!

........................................ help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

reality~

weekend is over again...
now im back in campus...
work time!
running out of time with my fyp!
sigh~
i just wanna do it and get it done with it...

wish me luck!

phew~

Sports Carnival is over.. what a tiring day! the whole day out in the sun and entertaining people with food.. hehehehe.. the heat didn't bother me much but the sweat bothered me as i got sticker and sticker and smelly! it was really hot.. it ended at 7.45pm.. i had fun though but just couldn't stand the heat much.. I'm really exhausted and tired and my legs are sore.. i need a massage on my feet.. who is willing to bring me for foot reflexology??? now that I'm back home, i want to sleep.. not planning to go anywhere as i'm aiming to attend morning mass.. then head to midvalley to look out for mum's, soph's and denise's bday present.. time to crack my head on what to get for them again.. sigh.. i hate to crack my head for this.. :(

... I'm heading to bed soon.. cannot tahan already... eyes are closing on me...

teary~

my feelings are beyond words... all i could do is cry and sit at one corner quietly and not say anything... im just hurt and just sad...
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tears just wet my cheek as i just stare out the window and wonder back...

sigh~

fight?

why does the word 'fight' exist in the first place... i hate it when people around me fights and argue... and bringing up all the past to make one person hurt... it hurts so badly... im cuurently pissed at my bestfriend's bf when he doesnt even fucking appreciate my bestfriend... i just wish someday that the word 'fight' never exist! i hate it as much as i hate the weather! its making me cranky and everything in the world... like whta kristen say... you make my blood boil! hahahaha...

sigh~

the other night i didnt message him and call him the other night when i came back late, he question me asking why i didnt call him...
last night was the opposite... when i called him he push me away~ how is that so?

*sigh*

heading out now...

killing me softly!

my cramps as usual is killing me badly and slowly.... i just want to sit in one place for the rest of the day but unfortunately i have to walk around and do house chores and this and that... ouchhhhhhhh...

but one thing it didnt stop me from going to the grand opening in republic last night... was awesome... took a lot of pictures but have to wait cause its all with natalie.. hehehe... free flow of beer, wine, and cocktail from 8pm till 12am.. hehehe... i had fun though even some of the music they play suck big time cause you cant dance to it... they played too much of trance music!!

mum just got back from singapore and i got the tops that i bought online.. hehehe.. yay! new tops.. loving it!

movies movies movies...

27 dresses was awesome... i love it.. i want to watch it again!!!!!

a list of movies i must watch!!!!

1. The Water Horse
2. Gone Baby Gone
3. Definitely, Maybe
4. Over Her Dead Body
5. Forbidden Kingdom
6. Wanted... In June
7. Mamma Mia... In Sept
8. The Batman Movie

hehehe.. will be updating the list every now and then.. hehehe...

happy thoughts

today is a happy day!!!! besides my two friend who told me that we were gonna have donuts went missing! hahaha... yesterday i meet up with them and we chill until 3am... from i think 6pm.. hahaha.. yeah... long long long long reunion!

but today is better besides the back pain of mine... my chest painful... and my head as coz not enough sleep!

happy thoughts in my headdddddddddddddddd!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

happy to sad again~!

my day was about to change since last nite... i had the best time with the guy i love last night... it was the best... it was long since i was treated like that... that i thank you...

and nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... from happy to angry and sad... i just had to have one small argument with the one person i dont want to argue and i had to argue with YOU! *you should know who you are!* sedar sikit... i just want to be happy for once and you just spoil it!

*not in the mood suddenly*

=(

my back hurts like shit!!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... can i break my back one shot!

loosing it!

our flight got delay and we got stuck up air!!! yeah i mean up up up there.. i saw the moon up on air for the first time... i mean not the first time seeing the moon but really up close on the eye level from inside the plane... it was raining heavily.. and thunder!!!!! i mean THUNDER!!!! up in the sky where i was in the plane... the flight was terrible... my heart just felt like it was jumping out of my body.. anyway when i arrived back home, it was damn late and i was damn tired!!

and today i had to wake up at 6am to drive back to campus just in time to get my ass to class...

besides that all i was distracted with one thing... and im trying not to think about it... sigh!!!!!!!!!!

all i did for the pass half the day was longing for your message..
seeing if you still care for me...
whether you'll be worried that i haven't message since the last time i messaged...
whether im back here safe or not?

what am i suppose to do???
im starting to feel that im really invisible... that is not what you used to make me feel...
i used to feel complete and also give me a reason to smile!!!!!!! where has it gone..?? im loosing myself day by day...